Hello all, I am new and in my intro post I stated a few things pertaining to why I am here reaching out. I have little experience or knowledge of incubi aside from what I’ve googled, things I’ve seen and heard of in movies and podcasts.
I am a lucid dreamer, I almost always have full control of how my dreams play out and more importantly if I need the escape a dream I can force myself to wake up. This ability has gotten a bit weaker since I started taking trazodone for anxiety, depression and insomnia. I still dream and can control a lot, but forcing myself to wake up has gotten a tad harder.
Last night, I was dreaming that I along with an unknown friend were being haunted by some sort of entity. This entity at first seemed evil, hurting people around us, chasing us through wooded areas, house and other buildings. They at one point entered a woman running a hotel that we fled to and she ended up dying. It seemed like it sucked her life force to gain power to move through the living world. We finally reached a safe place or what I thought was safe. At this point I was sleeping in this dream, in what looked like a dark house, gothic style, to my liking but dark and a bit torn down. I felt the entity grab both of my legs and propped them up against their chest, then put one arm under the small if my back and dragged me to the end up the bed. I was filled with their intentions, a seductive feeling and well as my own anger that I couldn’t move my own body. Upon realizing I could t control my body, I used my anger to push the entity’s feeling out of me, which made them unable to touch me any longer. That stopped them from what i am certain would’ve been a sexual experience. At this point I was thinking how I needed to wake up, but I couldn’t. I started getting scared at this point but also slightly aroused. I also felt a bit remorseful that I had stopped the entity from using me as they wished.
The dream continued on as me, now alone, running from this entity. Trying to wake myself up, trying to hide, but every time I thought I was safe, I felt in my body and mind that the entity knew exactly where I was and was keeping a distance from me until my fear faded and then it would get closer. There were maybe two instances in this dream where the entity filled my body and mind with their lust, almost to the point where I gave in, but at the last second I grew angry and pushed it out. When I finally woke myself up I felt confused and sad but also very intrigued by what I had just experienced. I immediately started googling incubi and here I am! Any light that may be shed upon me is greatly appreciated. Thank you for taking the time to read this, I hope to hear from someone soon!