How Ronwe saved my ass while learning for the most important test in my life
So, this might be a bit of a weird entry considering that I just expressed my scepticism about the occult as a whole, but I guess thats just a part of the path. Anyway.
If you´ve been following this journal for some time you´ll probably know that I used to use a bunch of drugs and had basically reached a point where my psyche was completely annihilated. Suffice to say it wasn´t fun times. I just wanted to mention that here again because it goes to show how steep of a climb Ive been on for the last years.
After years of therapy, a stay at a mental health clinic and lots and lots and lots of willpower, setbacks and small successes here and there, I finally reached a point where I realized my original goal I had since I was a young teen: becoming a psychologist.
I had been applying for a spot at universities in my country of birth (Germany) but since we have a really rough system that only takes into account your grade at the end of school, I was fucked. In Germany we have grades ranging from 1 to 6, where 1 is the best and 6 is the worst. If you wanted a spot at university to study psychology you needed to have a 1. If you were willing to wait a few years you´d probably have a chance with like up to a 1,7 maybe a bit more depending on the university. I hated school a lot so I was sitting at a 3,2 and obviously I never got accepted. I knew I had to move to Austria where, instead of looking at your school grades, they have you write a very challenging test and those who score best on that test get accepted into university.
Please keep in mind that I wasted the last 10 years doing drugs and trying to recover from this, I wasn´t…that good at learning anymore (read: shit). But I wanted this and so I sat my ass down to learn as soon as the learning material got released. 4 months before the test. I did learn almost every day, taking a few breaks here and there, but it was insanely hard for me to sit down for a long period of time. I learned between 5-30 minutes each day, reading only 2-5 pages a day.
I knew it was going to be hard for me, which is why I started early, but I hoped it would work out.
3 months I learned as best as I could but when I had that 1 month left I realized that I still wouldn´t cut it. I had summarized the whole script and could now focus on learning that summary by heart, but I just knew that 5-30 minutes a day wouldn´t cut it. While that did motivate to do more it also freaked me out. This is where Ronwe came in.
I had heard of Ronwe before many times and knew he was associated with knowledge and learning and the like. I even thought “oh thats interesting, I have to talk to this guy some time”, but I never really had enough reason to do so, so I never did. NOW I HAD A REASON.
I looked up different articles on Ronwe, tried to get a feeling for how he might be and finally sat down and prayed to him. I told him how important this is to me (VERY!!!) and how I NEED to pass that test. It seriously felt like a life or death thing because while I could´ve tried again the next year, I wasn´t sure if I had the motivation to do so after learning such a long time for a failed attempt. I kinda felt like I had to put it all on one card so to speak.
So I told Ronwe of my predicament, of how I did what I could do but how I feared it wouldn´t be enough. I asked him to help me.
Being the occult beginner that I am I didn´t really had any clear sign that my request was heard or even granted. I did however feel slightly better about myself because at the very very least, I had tried and asked for help.
The last month of learning my time spent learning and my (for lack of better word) productivity ABSOLUTELY FUCKING SKYROCKETED!!! Like…I seriously couldn´t believe it.
The sceptic in me “knew” that it was just the stress that made me do it, but I did stand up to that sceptic and pointed out that it was a fucking big coincidence that it happened right as I called on Ronwe. And I mean right then and there, at max it took like 2 days for me to start learning this hard but Im actually pretty sure it was less than 2 days.
I went from learning 5-30 minutes a day to at least an hour. Sometimes even 3 hours.
My summary was 96 DIN A4 pages which I LEARNED BY HEART in 1 month. I´m an intelligent person but I do ABSOLUTELY FUCKING SUCK at learning by heart.
It was insane. It was unreal.
I seriously couldn´t believe that I was doing that. But I did.
The day of the test came and I was the most nervous I had been in my entire life. I cried almost the entire morning just because of the nervousness.
When I sat down to write the test I prayed once again to Lucifer and Ronwe, then I wrote the test.
1100 people applied to this test. I placed 64.
HAIL RONWE! HAIL LUCIFER!
Ronwe, you are the best 
If you need help learning: CALL. ON. RONWE!
Seriously.