No it’s not normal but think of it this way…non of us are normal we do magic n speak to demons I check over my shoulder on who is watching me every now and again normal is for boring ppl if u don’t feel anything well it means u have no regets
Yes i would say it is very normal, Magickions tend to put our-selves apart from other people, we are usually in our own world to be with our own. When a death of somebody who is not like us is known we tend not to care, tend to not beat an eye, although this is not law it is something that happens often. Dont be afraid or worried, again this is normal.
Open jar and add:
Black pepper, chilli power
Graveyard dirt (Grave of someone who died in a shootout with police. I didn’t need that exact grave but I figured a violent death makes it more powerful.)
Lamb teeth. (Lamb was sacrificed to the Morrigan on Halloween. Substitute with chicken bones)
3 9mm bullets
Pieces of cane from subject’s dead relative(subsituted for DNA)
Psalm 109 written on a piece of paper
Target’s name written on a piece of paper. Stab the paper with your ritual knife and add it to the jar.
Form a ball of sickly looking grey/brown energy with your rage added, zap it to the jar, and seal it.
Then spoke the Chant I consecrated a day or 2 earlier.
Then buried the Jar.
I also did it on a Saturday, which they say is good for banishing or destructive spells.
Have you tried the figurine + killing with Baneful spirits method found in Works of Darkness? Or are an innitiate into the O.A.A because once you become a sworn knight you can use the seven sons of the phoneix.