Glad to hear it. But this is very serious. I have to give you the suicide hotlines for legal reasons. If I get any whiff on the forum that you are I will have to close your account. This forum is privately owned, it’s protected not by section 3c laws like the big social media platforms are, and we have to practice risk mitigation for members’ actions. If something happened to you and this forum was deemed by law enforcement to have encouraged it, the forum is over.
I don’t entirely disagree with you.
I don’t think the mechanism you posited makes sense in my personal worldview, but self ascension is pretty much what becoming a living god is about, and if it makes sense to you and you can make it work, that is what matters - it’s your magick and not anyone else’s, as you said, in other words.
I don’t think any Internet forum would have that, because this is the sort of thing every person has to find for themselves.
We can give some ideas and point to resources, but this forum is largely attractive to newbies and those with greater skill either don’t need it and tend to have thier own goals in mind.
Maybe try that book - I listened to the Audible version and it was quite quick to get through - I think the place to start is to confirm your worldview. I know what I mean by “other universe”, and it’s not another “timeline”, but this is an area where everybody uses the same words for different meanings - there are many models and none are concrete and universally agreed - so you’ll want to provide definitions to avoid people responding at cross purposes.
We have some tutorials on developing your astral senses, and a few of those are collected here: Unofficial Tutorials: Developing Astral / Psychic Senses Collection
The Chinese qigong teachers believe that you cannot control your energetic being well unless you develop it. It will simply fade out and you’ll reincarnate with a new one, not recalling who you are, again. If that is the case, an I think reincarnating isn’t of interest here, you might like to look into the Greater Kan and Li and taoist Immortality Practices.
There’s only this universe in thier model, so after that you’re on your own.
You could also have a chat with Ebuhuel to see if he’s got any ideas, as he has openly offered for people to work with him to ensure they don’t incarnate at least on Earth. Ebhuhel offer: Help to avoid reincarnation traps