It’s not only the mental hospital… i am 30 and i was always a pathetic person, loser, not using my intellignce and instead made the worst decisions and let others abuse me and step on me. I wanna kill this person with magic and be reborn
if i dont reborn I will continue to suffer and i am tired of being miserable and a loser
You won’t destroy the person you are but you can transform yourself like a butterfly.
Think of Persephone. She never changed the fact that she was Kore but now she’s the powerful queen of the Underworld.
I myself wish I could change my past especially with the knowledge and stuff I have now but I’d rather look foward.
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This is something for the Mass of the Phoenix ritual. The past remains behind and a new person is reborn.
But there is also the ritual of the Lake of Fire which is more controled as the mage chooses himself/herself the traits needed, talents and features…
Just gonna give my two cents here. Look, you cannot and will never be able to erase the events that occurred in your past. What you can do is make your present and future better. Your life is hell right now because your letting your past control you. Like a slave.
You can always break free from it. Introduce good things into your life, find a hobby, a mate, friends, whatever that makes you smile and gives you motivation to get out of bed in the morning.
I have done terrible things in my past. I have also went through terrible things. I took the wisdom I gained from those events that affected me. The ones that traumatized me. I made lemonade from lemons so to speak 
. and the things I did to other people? I got over it. I realized that I’m not that same person who did those things anymore.
I’m a new person because of it. And my life is improving. Have faith in yourself, stop trying to run away from your past. Embrace it.
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This would only be possible by shadow work. It’s not easy to turn yourself into a butterfly and it’s a very messy process.
“in order to be able to become a butterfly , the caterpillar has to fall apart completely, decompose down to its very essence, devoid of any shape or consciousness. It literally dies. There is nothing left of it. And from this liquid essence, the butterfly starts to put itself together, from scratch.”
Source: How Does a Caterpillar Turn into a Butterfly? | Scientific American
Most will leave out the dirty, disgusting shadow work that needs to be done.
Sure, you wanna change, do the shadow work.
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That’s the most beautiful, morbid and honest thing I’ve ever read 
Accepting that you allowed others to step on you and overall be a person you’re not happy with, is the first step to kill that old image of yours you hate so much.
Instead of wasting every single day of your life thinking about your mother, the institute, your grandfather and all the mistakes you did because of this, channel this energy into a new passion. Something that will make you a better person.
Meditate, open your heart space, forgive yourself first of all, even if you can’t forgive everyone else, in order to move on. Concentrate in every single of your chakra from root to crown and forgive each one of them for every single issue they caused to you, because of you. What others did to us, is not an excuse to do things and be someone we’re not proud of. You’re just repeating old patterns. If you don’t like who you are, then change it. Here and now.
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Yes, it’s called Damnation.
No! Without the memories, one cannot remember the lessons learned.
Everyone wants the easy way out, there is no easy way out. You erase memories, you lose part of yourself and the essence of who you are. I know way to much about this and I had memories ripped away. It’s not worth it.
The best and sane advice came from @Anassa. Though, I still think Shadow Work has to be involved, the advice is on point.
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Not true fire and brimstone is a Christian made up it’s not the reality
It has to, eventually, but Shadow work goes a bit too deep, he might face things he’s not capable yet to face and that might break him even further. Healing is a priority right now, following from a Soul Retrieval.
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Pm me I know more stuff you could do wipe memories And other things
That’s bollocks. Where do you think the Christians got the concept from and why do you think certain Christians corrupted it?
Read The Book of Azazel. 
I know they corrupted it
Right, so why would I be here on an occult forum talking about the corrupted Christian version of Damnation?
Clearly, I’m not talking about the Christian form of Damnation. I’m referring to the Gatekeeper ritual.
Someone else mentioned damnation maybe that was you maybe it wasn’t it’s not a big deal
It was me.
Glad we cleared this up.
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I had bookmarked this a few weeks ago.