Beelzebub Working Journal (Finished)

Chant meditation Day 31

This time, the chant was geared towards Beelzebub, mainly to find out more about the final ritual I will be performing with him in this pathworking this was done by chanting his name 108 times. Unlike previous mediations where I chanted his name, I felt as if I was lifted up as opposed to the feeling of descending. He also did not wrap his energy around me as usually but stood before me. I thanked him for his time and proceeded to ask if we were at that final point and what I need to do do to prepare.

“Yes, Dra’lukmun, we’re coming to an end. The seed within you has sprouted, so we must water it to allow it to grow and bear its fruits. It has been watered by the currents of myself and the beings you have worked with. Now, we must solidify that exchange so it may continue throughout your life.”

He then gave me a symbol with the instructions of carrying it on my person until the day of the ritual. I will have to draw it out here in a moment but it is essentially a star of David that has been colored black as fertile soil with a red spiral. Not sure what it means as of yet but we will have to wait and see. I will continue to be meeting with him to get more details of the ritual as I proceed.

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Chant Meditation Day 32

I apologize for my absence, as I had mundane matters to take care of. For this mediation, I used the Uczar Reiski Num chant and the symbol I was given the last mediation. The visual was very brief but the build up of energy was quite gradual. From the symbol, the black pyramid emerged and i stood in front of it. As i chanted, the sand turned black and the wind picked up. This created a sandstorm strong enough to block out the sun in that place, engulfing me into the shifting abyss. From this void, I felt still and at peace. After that, it was done and I feel grounded.

Not quite sure what this means, other than I am merging with the symbol, which could come in handy for the future ritual.

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Chant Mediation Day 33

This go around, I chanted Beelzebub’s name while visualizing the black star of David with the red spiral. I needed another piece for the upcoming ritual so I asked him to take over as I chanted and give me a phrase of power. About half way through, i started to chant a phrase that came to my mind “Vox Stigmas Omnis”. In Latin, this roughly translates to “Voice of all marks/brands” although it can also be translated to “Voice of all disgraces”. No real visuals today, although I could feel more energy powering out of the symbol so I will be continuing to explore that chant.

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Chant Meditation Day 34

I used the “Vox Stigmas Omnis” chant today. I actually walked into my temple highly annoyed with individuals who has been little more than trouble that keep coming around. So, before I could chant, I had to ground myself and settle the annoyance. When I began, I focused on the black six pointed star with the red spiral. The air felt heavy and charged as I chanted, almost like fine flammable powder floating in the air waiting for a spark. The fire within burned hotter with every repition as I could feel the annoyance seep out of me through my sweat. Images of decaying bodies came to mind, becoming soil.

Eventually the smoke from my incense floated in a circle where I was visualizing the symbol. I held my hand up and willed it into a portal, connecting me to the black river. I put restrictions that only Beelzebub, the tribe and the waters way pass through the portal into my space. As the black water poured out of the wall, I visualized it flowing through me, passing on power when I need it and taking away what I dont.

At the end of the chant, the imagery of the tendrils I discovered dissolving into black sand came to mind. The sand was carried by the wind coming off of the astral form Beelzebub created, making a sandstorm that acted as a barrier. I could see it whipping around me, cutting into stagnant energy and pushing it away. I took the energy that flowed through me and used it to expand the barrier slowly until it engulfed my entire house, cutting away all that is useless and pushing the remains away.

Feeling calmer now afterwards

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Chant Mediation Day 25

Once again, I was annoyed prior to meditation so I had to chill out before continuing. I did the same chant as last night, although really emphasized the “s” sounds as I progressed, essentially making hissing sounds. I visualized the portal again, allowing the black river to flow into my temple. I watched my toes shift into roots, drinking up the waters and traveling up my body. As I chanted, I saw dark mist leaving my lips, covering the floor of my temple and expanding out throughout the house. I could see the shapes of serpents crawling beneath the mist, but remaining in my temple area, as if waiting. I commanded them to venture out and guard my thresholds. After that it was done.

I think the importance of this and the previous meditations is to build the atmosphere of my temple space for the final ritual of this working. We will have to see what tomorrow brings.

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Chant Meditation Day 36

This was less of a visual and more of philosophical thought. While I can constantly feel the presence of Beelzebub’s realm and the Black River since I opened the portal in my temple, it comes with a price. I have been noticing the more
unsatisfying aspects of my personality emerge. I have been more critical of the people around me, of society in general, and questioning the point of it all the last few days. I often am presented the question that if I had a kill switch for a majority of people, whether or not i would press it. If you asked me a year ago, it would be a hard no. But I have been hesitating the answer lately, as I am aware that deep down, if given the right scenario, there would be less reason not to. I don’t know if it is just me or if that is just something everyone has. But I know I am definitely a mixed bag when it comes to the morality department.

So, during the chant, Beelzebub asked “Would you destroy this part of you for the sake of peace?”

It took me a majority of the session to answer as I had to wrestle with emotions that were surfacing but towards the end I replied

“No. It is not something that can be destroyed, as it is not real yet. To attempt to would just be an act of fear, leading me to become a tyrant. It is a truth I need to acknowledge and find a use. My concept of self must always remain in a cycle of birth and decay, or else I will fall. That part of my thoughts just reminds me that things can change and that I am capable of much, including truly horrible things.”

He seemed satisfied and reminded at the corner of my temple, watching as I finished. He has not left since so I think he will be observing for a bit.

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I think it’s part of working through the shadow. I’ve had similar symptoms flare up, too, after opening and reopening my portal.

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I think that is likely the case and where our pathworkings are sort of meeting. When you work with decay, things that were hidden are revealed. In a way, it is pretty much the same as exploring the shadow.

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Sounds right. When I closed mine for a day, it was like the air was clean again and the house was lighter. But as soon as I opened it again, things started shifting.

It seems pretty clear that there are similarities in negative effects from working with Abyssal energy, though. It does make me wonder a few things over time. Does one become used to it and the negative effects are effectively ignored? Or does becoming more like the current reduce the effects it has on the practitioner (your initiatory rites, my energy swapping)?

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I honestly do not know as of yet. That seems to be the risk behind all this.

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Reminds me a bit of the warnings about necromancy, but I don’t know how much of that is a scare tactic and how much is real.

I know I’m going to stick with mine until I have worked through all of the 7 shadows and will use what I learn, but I don’t know how much deeper I will go after that if the effects continue (or get worse).

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I feel you. Mine seems to be intensifying before the climax but I am unsure how long the effects will last after that. I got another pathworking planned afterwards but may take a week for a break to recenter.

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Chant Meditation Day 37

So today had an interesting visual. As I chanted I could see the portal I opened expand and the waters of the Black River engulf me. The force of the energy was enough to overwhelm me with the need to lay down, so i did. As i played and chanted, my voice grew quieter as i was pulled into myself. I saw my heart beating strong but slowing down as I breathed. I fell deeper and watched a cell from my heart function, processing nutrients and exporting waste throughout its organelles. I dove deeper and observed the atoms, packed tightly together but the area still vastly empty space. I went further into one of the atoms and dwelled in the space between the nucleus and the electrons, observing the vast space of nothing. Eventually, they both disappeared and I remained in that nothing.

From there, I felt the weight of my past fears, my depression, my sorrows. The maddening thoughts of being nothing. I went through each one as Beelzebub emerged in that space of nothing.

He said “Would you destroy this?”

Me: “No, I would not. It also is not real, just reactions to my internal and external environments. They give me opportunities to find what is valuable in my life. But I have made the mistake of holding on to them in the past.”

Him: “Let them go then.”

So, I did, allowing the emotion to dissipate into the nothing.

Him: “Does this place bother you?”

Me: “It appears natural to be uncomfortable with nothing. Many strongly sought to hold onto something, even if in reality the object they hold is mostly empty space. Hell, our own bodies are empty space.”

Him: “So, what makes you and I similiar?”

Me: “That we are both made of Nothing?”

Him: “Yes, which means that every obstacle you come across is also made of nothing. Knowing this, you can bend it to your will if you work with this nothing.”

Me: “I see, so this is how you are fulfilling that part of the pact, teaching me how to create opportunities in any situation, by realizing that everything is essentially nothing?”

He nodded and looked away as if observing the empty space.

Me: "I do have one question before I leave: the after effects of this kind of working, the emotions and weight in particular, how long will it last?

Him: it depends on how long you hold onto it. Learn to acknowledge things, but allow them to flow. Nothing must remain stagnant if you are to survive and thrive. Do not worry so much.

He then disappeared and I pulled myself back

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Thanks for asking this. I’m glad he answered.

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No problem at all. It benefitted me as well, and now I believe I have an idea of how to end this working now.

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Whats the Black star of david? Its very Funny because Last year my friend asked LĂșcifer What should i do to increase my psychic abilities and LĂșcifer said ""to meditate inside a Black star of David , but you are not ready yet, Then recently i asked my friend again to ask lucifer about this and he said that i would see a sign today , showing to me that im reais

Also, when i Was meditating on Baelzebub he gave the mantra 'omnias potestades" to me , he seems to Like the word omnias

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It is essentially the Jewish symbol (the six pointed star), completely filled in with the color black. For me, it also has a red spiral in the center. I will have to draw it out sometime.

“All/ Whole Power”. Now that one is interesting. And yes he does seem to enjoy the word Omnias

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Chant Meditation Day 38

The visual was brief today. I found myself back in the void I was previously. From the depths of the darkness, I saw armed beings emerged, a full battalion’s. I could sense that they were from Beelzebub. I broke them into three groups based on what they carried (sounding horns, rope, and spears). The spearsmen I assigned to guard my household to strengthen my defenses. The men with rope I assigned to bring my family resources we need (money, food, etc). Finally, the men with sounding horns I assigned to amplify the effects of my voice so that my orders are followed.

It did not feel strange to command these beings as it normally would. I certainly have changed during this pathworking. I pulled a strand of hair, wet it with my blood and set it ablaze with my meditation candle as an offering. I then dismissed them. I felt a brief sense of approval when i gazed at Beelzebub’s sigil before ending the meditation

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Chant Meditation Day 39

This one was a little more challenging as I was exhausted as I could barely sleep today upon starting. The energy slowly build this time around as opposed to all at once. Suffering played a role in this meditation. The first was physical pain in the form of sharp muscle spasms in my back and legs. I did not allow my voice to quiver and breathed through it. I used the visualization technique I learned from Omyemen to remove the energy from the pain and fill the “wounds” with energy from the portal. It subsided quickly. The next was the exhaustion amplifying, making my body feel like lead. I pulled in more energy from the portal and used it to balance the weighted feeling. It passed quickly.

The last was more difficult as a memory emerged of times in my childhood where there was not enough food to go around. I learned at a young age what going to bed hungry felt like, and it has left an impression in the back of my mind to where I do pretty much everything to ensure my own family does not go through it. A majority of the reason why is out of love, but there is a part of it that relates to fear. I do not want to ever find myself at the point where my family suffers like I did. But I also cannot carry that fear, as it is stagnant and weighs my mind down. I visualized it passing through my lips as I exhaled and sent it through the portal.

Beelzebub spoke “Do you wish to sacrifice your ability to feel pain and fear?”

Me: “No, as I will be holding onto them anymore. I can feel without attaching myself to it. To remove the ability entirely will just make me blind.”

I sensed approval as he left.

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Creation

Beelzebub gave me an interesting task to complete shortly after my last meditation. He told me to purposely summon parasites and to sacrifice them along with the form of my shadow. Now, this is not really an insane idea, as my own method with dealing with parasites is to tear and consume them. I have shared this in my science and magic thread. However, this technique takes a quite of focus, strong visualization skills, and will not fare well for a complete infestation of multiple parasites at the same time. To handle that level of parasites, a banishment or the aid of another being is likely necessary.

There are a number of spirits out there that can help with this, but I sensed the easy way was not what Beelzebub intended. So, I had to think about if I was (for a lack of a better term) a god, how would I approach this. Yes, i could just hunt parasites down and use the energy, but that once again seemed a bit too easy. The request did not have the feeling of being short termed, so the only long term solution would be to create a being that would feast and convert energy from parasites. Servitors are not an uncommon practice, but I decided to take it a step further by giving it life.

I drew inspiration for the form of this being from various plants here in the physical, but mainly a carnivorous plant family called the Pitcher Plant. These plants release a scent that attracts insects but can also attract lizards and small rodents depending on the species. The prey crawls into the plant, searching for the nectar it smells and falls into the digestive fluid, where it drowns. Overtime it is digested and converted into nutrients that the plant can use. The specific pincher plant i used was Nepenthes Khasiana, also known as “the demon flower” by local people of its natural habitat. I took its latin name, dropped all the vowels and repeated letters, converted them into numbers using Pythagoran numerology, and created the following sigil.

Taking this sigil, I began my normal chant meditation using the “Vox Stigmas Omnis” chant. I focused on the past where I had trouble handling my anger. There was a time I thirst for destruction, especially my own. I focused on that person who was overwhelmed with anger, but also pain. Like it or not, that person was a part of how I became the person I am today. However, I do not have a way to keep him in use today so I decided to let him go on. I brought my attention to my core, the jewel engulfed in black flames. I forced a crack and extracted a piece of that core. I could feel loss immediately but continued. Pulling it out, i deeply inhale and visualized giving the shard life and consciousness as I exhaled. I visualized the shard being placed onto the sigil, activating and infusing into it.

Once the sigil was activated, I shifted my focus into the portal I previously created and observed the energy of the Black River flowing out of it. I stepped into it, into the abyss
 I projected the sigil in front of me and forced it into the form of a seed. I placed it into the current began to shape the being, starting with roots that plunged into the river, drawing up energy to live. I formed thorned vines and leaves to give it being, as well as a means to create fruits to start excessive energy. I gave it the ability to bloom and bear seeds. On one of the main veins, I gave it a human face with a mouth, eyes, ears and a vocal system so it may speak. Finally, i created the pitcher to hold destructive fluids extracted from the Black River. Within the pitcher, i created a small energy circuit where it can take some of that energy and convert it into energy that parasites are attracted to (serial, love, anger, sorrow, pain, etc) to act as the nectar. Finally, I formed a lid and taught him how to close it once parasites are within for digestion.

I spend some time revealing how to use and store the energy from the broken down parasites. I spoke to the part of me i used for this creation, telling him that it was unfair to carry him like i did and that in this form, he could be destructive but also live outside of the cage of pain. He could even possibly choose to incarnate later on if he wished, but that this was an opportunity to exist as a separate being that does not have to be caged or controlled, so long as it is parasites he hunts. All I ask in return is some of the excessive energy he collects when he was willing to give it. For the first time, I sensed peace from that fragment and he claimed he understood and accepted. I gave him the name “Dremus”

Once I ensured that he was extracting energy from the black River and everything was working correctly, I severed the bond between us and watched him developed his own energy center with his own fragment. I said my goodbyes and made my way back. Before leaving, I took some of the water from the river and used the energy to fill the void from the missing fragment in my core. I then stepped out and got back.

For anyone with a parasite problem, feel free to use the sigil of Dremus. He is designed to consume parasites by trapping and breaking them down. If used in combination of banishment (such as "I banish you from my space into the maw of Dremus), it may be highly effective. If you do use this method, i would definitely appreciate the feedback.

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