Well anyone who drank as much would get addicted, and past a certain baseline of frequency, addiction is found in all animal models (I don’t agree with those being done, but they exist) because it’s about a biochemical change, not a character defect or anything… but that’s enough of that, the books I suggested dissext the idea of alcoholism as a personal weakness, and give you the best chance IMO of breaking loose.
I think you have every hope of trading in the relatively shallow buzz of beer for some real power, and also healing from the things that have happened.
Take a look at these for some starting points:
Bit of fun:
You got this, you’re not flawed, you’re not “dis-eased,” and you’re not defective.
