[Aeons Shadowlog]

Yes I might ! Just started working with Bathin, asked him to help/teach me how to astral travel/soul travel and all of that (the whole bunch), who came to visit me quite early this morning actually, I haven’t asked if it was him, but pretty sure it was.
So yeah, will see how it goes I guess. I will keep you updated !

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Please do!!!
Im lacking people in my life I can converse with on these topics lol :black_heart::black_heart::black_heart:

Next tribute goes to Cernnunos.
He was in my initiation with Hecate but stays quiet until random points in my life. I’m still sure there’s a reason to keep him in my patronage. Just not quite time yet to learn everything I can from him.

Cernnunos

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This tribute is for The all father Woden. I’m not sure if he was the hat man that appeared in sleep paralysis after my initiation, but I get mad similar vibes between that and how the Vikings show represented him in the first episode of season one. Even still sometimes a white dragon appears to me in my dreams as a representation of my connection to Woden and my Ancestors. I know I’m a mut but 10% of me is atleast Scandinavian and being I’m %66 English I’m certain there’s even greater Anglo Saxon in there too lol.

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Next begins my working with the gatekeepers. Asmodeus (and Hecate) introduced me to EA koettings channel witch ultimately lead me to leaving my dead end job, escaping my abusive ex, a few years back. This embracing my true self, and obtaining my benefits to seek higher education allowed me to attach true purpose to my life.
The gatekeeper path working has given me a literal night and day comparison to where I am now.

Asmodeus also revealed to me that him Naamah and Lilith have been walking with me for some time, since I had my first sleep paralysis episode at 7 or 8 years old and they were the ones that chased the shadows away. They were also the beings and influences that lead to me questioning my comformist christian upbringing and ultimately seeking my own liberation.

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You work with the Norse too? I’m definitely following this :slight_smile: although I’m intrigued by your experience in general

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And as mentioned above, Naamah chased shadows from me in early childhood, Lilith too but Naamah took a keen interest in me and we had a sort of “exchange” for this protection. She would tuck me into bed and then before leaving sort of draw energy from me like a dementor from Harry Potter lol just not quite so violently (closest thing I can use to describe it).
After reading Beowulf in school she kindve gave me a telepathic nudge that the vibrations associated with Grendel’s mother was her current or energy. And altho the film was low budget and not so box office savey I still had the image of Angelina Jolie in my head associated with her liking so it stuck. Now I use this custom piece in my altar for her and I encourage any new witch or magician to find what works just the same as it always comes down to association with self.

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I find that although Woden is not my primary patron he is still deeply rooted in me and it’s funny how deep blood goes. Ive always felt a strong connection to call on him in the face of death (especially in the marine corps) and it’s dark moments like that that we learn more about ourselves and our ancestors than anything else. You never truly know yourself untill your confronted with such situations and therefore Woden will always stick with me. :black_heart::black_heart::black_heart:

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I definitely agree :slight_smile:

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After beginning my workings with the Gatekeepers the following Goetians and such have also made appearances in my path for simple guidance here and there. They are not my patrons but I still feel strongly connected with them due to their help.

Belial taught me that if I take the easy route my life will be hard however if I take the hard route my life will be easy.

Furfur taught me to know my value even if it means being a little selfish. This however also meant holding me accountable by teaching me to identify as a person with hard work ethic. Especialy when no one’s watching. But it made the selfishness a little more justifyable in my head. I always gave money to homeless for example however I was also always broke. Instead he stopped me indefinitely and then justified it by making me bust my ass in the work environment at the same time

Abaddon taught me to deal with shadows and insecurities by a sort of “feed the darkness” mentality. In other words if something is bothering me, assume the worst of it in my head and follow it to conclusions in a fake scenario in my mind. Then I could take heed knowing what was in my control and what wasn’t therefore not worrying over any of it.

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This tribute goes to Astarte. She walked with me throughout my time in the adult industry to present day. As said before she is a truly awesome Goddess who taught me to embrace my true self and raise my personal vibration through intense healing and self acceptance. Between her and Asmodeus I was taught to set yourself on fire for your passion, and the world will come watch you burn. I really hope to work with her for the rest of my life and encourage any who haves even the slightest hint of pull to her to take it. You will learn to love yourself again which is something most of us have lost since childhood. Dark blessings :black_heart::black_heart::black_heart:.

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So update on my workings with shadow log. After the passing of my grandmother and the family gathering full of “everyone showing their a$$” and other toxicities, I reaffirmed why I live 5 states away and disconnected from the negative energy…
The last night in Texas I woke up crying my eyes out from the culmination of the current state of my family but was comforted by what I thought was my mother’s dog laying it’s head on my chest. However when I looked down at the innocent eyes of what I thought was an alstrailian Shepard I found a black doberman peering back.
Startled by the unexpected… but not really feeling threatened… I awoke again to find that I was still dreaming and the dog vanished.
Still contemplating on who this was comforting me.
A hound of Hecate?
Lucifer?
Anubis?
These are my too guesses but still no answer…

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I was just thinking of Hekate too.

I’m sorry for your loss I hope things look up for you!

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It’s been awhile and I’ve been busy with classes and moving, but I’m in the most rewarding time of my life right now with the opportunities and help that’s been provided to me. I’m well off in my education and have no stresses like I’ve had on the rollercoaster since 2016. My finances have been amazing after selling the house and receiving my VA benefits.
I fell like I’ve lost my drive because I need chaos, pain and adversity to draw my magic. There’s also something new. A presence in the dark very predatory like and full of hunger. But it waits and watches, moving chess pieces from the shadows. I keep struggling to see. It wants me lazy and procrastinating. It wants me to fill my body with poisons and become lost in a self induced fake level of happiness.
I don’t need sleep paralysis to know these presences anymore and this is giving me deathly vibes like a some sort of soul eater or strong parasite. Trying to weaken me from the sidelines so it can feed off my vital force. I don’t know if someone is poisoning me or if I’m poisoning my self but I’m not me and I recognize it. so Im typing this out as a show of force and binding a message with this txt that I know it’s there and I will devour it. Alash Tad Alash Tal Ashtu, In Umbris Potestas Est.

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Quick update
The missing things from around the house turned up. I believe one of my familiars turned it up. But I’m still wondering who keeps hiding things from me. Stolas ate the last parasite but sometimes still amis. Receiving a new familiar tonight from Naamah to deal with the bigger problem. Should be interesting :metal:

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