Today I’ve had a Dream, and I’ve just woke up with intense thoughts,
memories inside me, from this “Dream”.
In this Dream, I’ve talked with my beloved Patron (after long weeks, finally) Abaddon. Hm… no, it wasn’t really “talking”. He just spoke to me - oh, Dear, He is really likes just telling things.
I’ve had several questions, about my shields and curses - because I simply can’t sense curses at all in negative ways (even when I knew about them, just like in the case of my JoS ex boyfriend’s), and some of them backfired, or can’t reach me. Lucifer told me things about this when I’ve asked for, but I felt that He want hold this “job” to an another Deity: which was Abaddon, my beloved Patron.
Why would you waste these guided energies towards you with keeping them outside, if you got the power to make them yours, and use these as your own?
It makes sense. Not only because it is logical and clearly a very good strategy even when it seems “passive” (trust me, it isn’t - you’ll see, why), but because based on what Abaddon told me that:
- I have this power already from my birth, so when I was 14 years old, the reason why I was able to repulse this group attack controlled by my ex-boyfriend was, because I’ve already used this strategy outside my consciousness, and after I’ve hit a new level of strenght (supported by this group), I’ve just simply “attacked back”, focused on the leader, to scare his sheeps away - but this was a “gift” to me, from my Godself, and I was worthy to It.
What does it means?
It means that you can grows faster when you are able to “swallow” every incoming energies, make them yours, and if even when these energies are stronger than you momentarily, you will able to deal with them more faster, you just have to do it, take your time and grow until you’ve became enough strong to - if you want - stop that mess.
…Or you can decide to use these curses, and grow faster while you can focus on your practices, or whatever you wish for or want.
After all, I can see in my everyday life that this strategy was always mine, I’ve brought it with me - and things connected to this has always enthralled me - I felt them close to me. But even in the phyical world, I’ve got the feeling that I have to feed from everything and everyone (plant, animal or even humans: no matter) - and no limits: only the cause!
Why I’m almost unable to sense curses?
You are able to sense them. They’re gave you a big power raise.
(And how I remembered back, yes, He was right! I was able to sense these positive changes every times - but I’ve focused on senseing “negative” ones. I was wrong. But He was right… from an exact point on my life, I’ve started to do it, just didn’t realized what am I doing really.)
Thank you for this knowledge to You, beloved Abaddon!
Your presence and attention Honor to me.
𝐶𝑜𝑛𝑠𝑢𝑚𝑒. 𝐴𝑑𝑎𝑝𝑡. 𝐸𝑣𝑜𝑙𝑣𝑒.