A Walk Between Worlds

I had a really surprising encounter today, while I was naping, trying to have an OBE.

I “woke up”, starting to get signs that I could if I wanted, get out of my body. So I started focusing on them, mostly on the vibrations I could feel.
I felt something going above my forehead, no idea what it was, then it was like something was walking on my bed. It made me think of a cat, because it wasn’t heavy at all, really light. It went on my belly, and sat on it. I could feel it watching me, even though I couldn’t see it with my eyes closed. I turned my head towards it, to make sure it knew that I was aware of it’s presence.

And then someone spoke, a woman. I have some troubles to remember what she said exactly at the start, but she was basically saying that I needed to get started on my journey, and most importantly, that I had to make plans for it, really have a kind of planning I guess and stick to it. She was talking in english the whole time, or at least it’s what I heard, and I would answer in english aswell. There was a word she used that I did not understand, and I asked her to repeat, which she did and explained what it meant (which was what I mentionned, making plans), it sounded like “voute” or “voote”.
I remember saying that yes, I was aware of what I needed to do but that sometimes, I just didn’t feel like it.
I felt like she felt sorry for me in away, hard to describe, she then said “You are still young”, to which I answered something like “Yes that’s what I tell myself, but I don’t know if it’s a good thing that I say that (as in I am trying to find excuses)”.
I asked “Who am I talking to ?” I cannot remember if she answered to me, but this whole time I knew it was an Egyptian goddess, and I had the imagery of a scorpion in my mind. I excused myself, saying that I was sorry because I did not know many egyptian gods. I lost the connection after that and woke up for good.

I then looked for any egyptian gods who had a scorpion as a symbol for them, and there was this goddess, who has a water scorpion as symbol, which is Serket. Now, I am really not sure if it’s her, considering the start, when I thought it was a cat walking on my bed, which made me think of Bastet, but I will consider it.
Her energy was really warm, and calm. She was talking really softly, but with a good confidence in her voice. I really liked it and felt at ease.

On another note, I talked about it in TMW post, but I had a strange dream few days ago. Before going to sleep, I was thinking about Anubis, and I think I was saying some stuff out loud, can’t remember. I know he showed up at some point, because I heard clearly a voice in my head saying “Were you talking to me ?”. I wasn’t able to get more from that, so I just went to sleep.
In the dream, I was standing on top of our galaxy, watching it from above. I then got “moved”, and I could see a huge black hole, surrounded by light, which was getting eaten by the black hole. I was getting pulled into it slowly, and I could feel that pull, that huge pression on my body. It was really a crazy experience.
After a few seconds, I am getting teleported in Ancient Egypt, flying fast above a city. I think I got stopped in front of a temple, or it looked like it because there was some statues of Egyptian Gods in front, and I remember I was looking for Anubis’s one.

The dream stopped right after that. I am pretty sure it was from Anubis, but I have no idea if there is any hidden meaning behind it. I have some ideas, mostly one, but yeah… Time will tell I guess.

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I’ve been busy since the last time I posted, my boyfriend finally came in France ! He is from Canada, and we’ve known each other since 4 years. So I wanted to spend my time fully with him for the 20 days he would be here.

I have a few things to talk about, but that will wait when he is gone, I dont want to waste the time I have left with him. There is just one interesting thing.

I’ve asked Belial to help me out yesterday on something, which was to get the COVID test results for my BF faster, because we were worried it would take too much time. Took the test at 7:30pm, got the results in the night at 3am. That’s some crazy shit right there, in not even 12hours.
Then during the night, I had a dream with EA Koetting in it. I was at a restaurant, and he was at a table in front of me, facing me. I could see on the table the sigil of Belial, so I was trying to wave at EA and say hi. A woman at my table, wanted to read me the cards, in exchange I would do it to her aswell, as a training.

Hail Belial, you are the best !

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I’ve just had a really disturbing dream.

The start wasnt that interesting, so I won’t talk about it, apart the fact that I was flying. At some point I managed to get inside of a big house, because someting wrong was going on outside. Then the wind started blowing really fast, really strong. It was so strong that it entered the house I was in. There was some people with me, and a lot of animals for some reason. Dogs and cats, aswell as wild animals too, like wolves and a bear that I saw.

The wind was destroying everything in its way, even inside of the house. I could see some animals getting thrown around by it, or that bear trying to hold on onto a door with his claws.
Eventually, it stopped. I moved in the kitchen (where the wind did the most damages), and I could see a man with his dogs. One of them was a rotweiller, and was really hurt. The other one was fine. The man was panicking, so I helped him move his dogs to another room in the middle of the house, with no windows. I brought his dogs food and blankets, then went in another room. More people inside of it, with animals too. I was helping by bringing them food. I went back in the kitchen, and could see those wolves. They looked more like foxes, but in my dream I said they were wolves.
They were really friendly, and wanted food too. I could also see cats in that kitchen, which was devastated.

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Damn, yeah that’s definitely really disturbing :flushed: do you think it has any meaning?

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Well it could be a lot of things, but I suspect it probably had to do with Anubis, since I was talking to him before sleep. He likes sending me weird dreams, or with dogs in them. Now to know what it means… no idea :rofl:

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Hey hey I’m back !

I’ve been pretty inactive in the last few months, mostly doing… Nothing. I will admit, I was very lazy, I stopped doing meditations, stopped doing OBE’s training, or anything spiritual or magick related. Trying to get back on track again now, slowly.
I have a lot of books I need to read, but uuuh again, lazy. So I made a small list of books I should read first, or work with. I started reading most of them but never finished :sweat_smile:

Exploring the World of Lucid Dreaming, by Stephen LaBerge PhD and Howard Rheingold. This one is important for me, because I dream a lot, so I want to be able to control my dreams.

Magickal Protection, by Damon Brand. I already went through it, did the Sword banishing for a while, then stopped. I also did the Master Protection Ritual last year (if I remember the name correctly). So I want to work again with it, more seriously and properly.

Energy Work and Astral Dynamics, by Robert Bruce. I think both goes together, as a lot of informations and exercices are in both books. But yeah, as I mentioned a few times in my journal, I’ve had a few experiences with Astral projection/OBE’s, so I really want to master it.

The Root of Chinese Qigong, by Yang Jwing-Ming. This got me interested, I started reading it not long ago, but it’s not something you can finish in a week, it takes time, lot of work.

Initiation Into Hermetics, by Franz Bardon. And then there is this book… I am really conflicted about it because it is pretty difficult for me, it forces me to get out of my confort zone way too much. It’s good in a way, but… Yeah. I will take my time with it. Bought it a while ago, went a bit through it and started doing the first exercices but quickly stopped.

So those are the main ones, but I’ve got a bunch of other books I need to read at some point. Some doesn’t need me to do anything, it’s just reading, no exercices really. Raymond Buckland’s work, C.G. Jung, Mauro Biglino, Zecharia Sitchin and a few other. Really interesting books.

There is a lot of things I still need to talk about, but that will wait for tomorrow. I also made my dream journal, so I’ll be able to finally write most, if not all my dreams, so my main journal doesn’t have a bunch of everything mixed in it lol.

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Today I got offered a new oracle deck ! My cousin gave it to me, I can’t remember how she got it, but I think it was with a game she bought.
I really like it, getting good vibes from it.


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:heart_eyes::heart_eyes: its so pretty!!

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Looks well done. Please share when ready :blush:

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I had a music playing in my dream tonight, and even when I woke up it was just filling my whole mind. It was from Katty Perry, “The One That Got Away”.
Pretty sure a spirit put that song in my head, cause I didn’t hear that music in ages lmao. Also because my whole body was vibrating after waking up. It was mostly the chorus playing, and not the rest of the song.

I’ve had that happening a few weeks ago, but I couldn’t remember the song, I can only assume it was from Imagine Dragons. And same thing happened as my whole body was vibrating, but I wasn’t dreaming when I heard the music. It was between sleeping and being awake, as if someone was keeping me in that state, and the music kept playing in my head. I remember thinking about Belial during the same time, and that I should plug in my headphones and listen to the song before I forget.
But yeah, was tired so thought to myself “I will remember”, and I didn’t :grimacing: Shit happens I guess ahah.

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Quick update on things.

Today I was feeling pretty shitty not gonna lie, didn’t feel like doing anything. Didn’t have that good of a sleep, because my sister is actually living again with us, and she is in the room right next to mine. So she got up at 6:30am this morning for her work, waking me up. I got up 40 mins later maybe, thought it would be a good idea to try something. In the book I’m reading about lucid dreaming, they say you have more chances to get lucid dreams when going back to sleep after some time. So I got up, did my things for two good hours, and went back to sleep.
No dreams, but got into that trance state again, when I can get out of my body if I want for example. And during that time, a spirit came to visit. No idea who that was, but he was pretty chill. I haven’t got a visit like that since months (if I don’t count Belial), December to be exact.
We talked a tiny bit, and interesting thing was that he was talking in spanish at first. But I could understand him ! I haven’t talked spanish since school, so I forgot everything. But it just made sense in my mind, I don’t think it was the language I understood, but more like the meanings of what he was saying. I don’t know if that make sense.
And so I asked him : “Why are you talking in spanish ?”, he laughed and switched to french, my language, and said “Oh I’m sorry, I just like it”.

Really really strange thing. I’ve had that happening a few times in my dreams, as someone would talk in japonese and I could understand everything they were saying.

Then around 4pm, I took a little nap, I was tired. I got my periods yesterday, so this plus the lack of sleep… Not good. Then I had that strange dream, which I talked about in my other journal.

Also bought and read “Belial: A History”, written by Baal Kadmon. I was like “why not” afted that dream.

Starting on “Energy Work” by Robert Bruce, and “Initiation Into Hermetics” by Franz Bardon. Let’s hope my motivation doesn’t die again on the way, because that would be frustrating. Belial, give me some strength please, or a good kick in the butt if it happens :pray:
Just joking around, but he knows what motivates me. He knows me too well, it is upsetting almost :angry:
Also, I am still reading the Qigong book, taking my time with it. Yeah, I am reading 4 books at the same time, might not be a great idea but that’s how I work.

I think that’s all for today. I will try to update more the journal, to write down my progresses with the 2 books. And I will probably write a few things regarding some shadow work I’ve been doing. I say “a few”, but there is quite a lot actually. I was doing shadow work before even knowing it was a thing, every week, if not every day. It does help to have a super active mind sometimes

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Sharing a music I discovered yesterday. I usually not listen to this, but this is pretty nice. The lyrics and the clip are interesting.

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Just a small update on something.

I’m going to be living at my cousin’s flat for 15 days, because she is going in vacation in Egypt (asked her to bring me a little Anubis statue if she can find :yum:), and she needed someone to take care of her cats.
So I brought my books with me, and my tablet, so I have a few things to do, and my PC.

But that’s not what I wanted to talk about. The last time I went to sleep at her flat, and it was the first time, I had a feeling I was being watched. And indeed, when I went to sleep I heard someone in my sleep say “Are you sleeping ?”, and that wasn’t my cousin but a male’s voice.
Today again, I had a hard time sleeping, couldn’t stay asleep for long. After some time, I was able to get myself in that trance state, so I can get out of my body. That’s interesting how I can do it by myself now, I still have some troubles with it, it’s far from being easy. Sometimes when it happens by itself, I will move some body parts like my feet to shake it off, cause I just want to sleep and not feel my body shake and vibrate. Hates this feeling btw lmao.
So I was focusing on my body, and I felt… someone, something was around. I thought to myself “whatever, will see what happens”. Dude helped me get out of my body it felt like, cause I had a hard time :rofl:
Super weird thing was that I had the feeling I knew him, and I even asked him “Why did you take that form ?”, which I can’t remember what he answered exactly, but I think he said it was the form of someone I knew. I don’t know anyone looking like that, but alright, I will take the bait :woman_shrugging: He wasn’t agressive with me or anything, but something felt odd, and I can’t quite put my finger on it.
But it’s not my home, I guess I will probably find some unpleasant spirits while I stay, it is expected. I will put up some more protections for myself.

Also, I wasn’t able to see my body, neither my cousin’s body which was sleeping next to me. Never was able to see my body while I was out to be honest. I don’t know what’s up with that, I always heard people saying they could.

But yeah, my cousin’s place feels too alive. I don’t like it.

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Little summary of my progress with Initiation Into Hermetics.

I decided I was done with the first exercises of the Step I, which are Thought Control, Thought Discipline and Mastery of Thoughts. Those exercises are quite complicated for me I have to admit, that’s why even though I am going to start the next exercices, I will continue those for as long as I can. Practice makes perfect right ?

The first one was about observing my train of thoughts, and remembering them. This wasn’t too hard. I’ve tried to put my thoughts in two categories. The first one would be “Ephemeral/meaningless thoughts”, which are thoughts that comes and go, that aren’t really about something special, they are just random stuff. So for me those aren’t really worth taking notice of. The second category would be “Substantial/significant thoughts”, which are thoughts about daily/weekly issues, things that you think about quite often, situations that we deem importants (notice how I am writing that, we think some of them are of importance, when in reality they aren’t, but we spend and waste our time thinking about them). Those, in my opinion, are worth observing, and remembering. This wasn’t an exercice in the book, but I decided it would be a good thing to do.

The second exercice is about focusing on one task/thought. An example in the book would be if we are at work, we should not think about private life things, but focus our thoughts on our work exclusively. But also if we are thinking about something in particuliar, like let’s say you are thinking about what to write in your next post in your journal. Concentrate on that thought until you are done with it, and don’t let yourself think about something else. That might be a shitty example, but you get it.

The third exercice is about well… not thinking about anything pretty much. I used to be horrible at it, and now it got way better. I don’t think I could do it for a good 20-30 minutes though, not for now at least.

So now I am entering the new exercice, which is Introspection (Self-Cognizance). I see that as a kind of shadow work, so this will be pretty easy I think, as I am pretty deep in it by now.
This is about recording our negative characteristics, our flaws, and write them all down. Then you have to divide them into categories, the four elements (fire air water and earth), and an other one which would be “Indifferent”. Then into three groups, which goes by the most important flaws that influence your life the most, to the less important ones.
Then when this is done, I will have to do the same thing, but about positive characteristics. I will not record those on this journal, as it is adviced in the book to not show it to anyone. BUT, I will write a few things down about the shadow work I’ve been doing since Belial entered my life. I don’t know when I am going to do this, hopefully during those 15 days I am away from my home. I have to try to occupy myself with other things than going on my PC and play, watch videos or series/movies. That’s something I’ve been doing less and less by the way, playing games at least. I used to spend my time on them, and now there is sometimes days when I won’t play, which is a really good thing.

Also, I have to work on my defenses again. Pretty sure those are lacking, because I haven’t been working on them since a while. I do feel protected, but I don’t know. Not confident enough I guess.

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Just a little past-present-future reading. The question was : Where am I at in my growth ?

Well, this is pretty accurate I think. I was expecting more a darker card for the past, but The Star actually describes it better, to my surprise.

Past - The Star : Hope, purpose, faith, those are the words that this card gives. In this deck however, it also says : “The Star is about an understanding of one’s sincere self”. And it is true, I found myself 3 years ago. Yes I have quite a dark past, but it is not important anymore, what is important is what happened after. This card is accurate.

Present - Page of Swords : This one seems also accurate. Talks about going forward towards a goal, knowledge and stuff.

Future - King of Cups : Now we are talking. This one is about mastering one’s emotions, not letting them “run you over”. This reminds me of what I talked about with Norse in my dream journal.

A bit lazy to write more at the moment, and tired aswell.

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King of Cups, you say?

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I have no idea who that guy was, but what’s being said in the video resonates a lot. Even more now because since a few days, I’ve had tarots readings telling me to get out of my confort zone and keep pushing. Great video.

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I’ve had a though in my head two days ago (or a message from a spirit ?), which was to look at things like a child would do.
I mean, we were all children so we did it, but we forgot. So the question now is how do they do that ? What does that mean, to look at things like a child would ? Like if everything was new ? Without judgement ? Or maybe to enjoy every single thing and not think about what comes after ?

Time to learn again.

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Usually means to look at things for a more “basic” perception. I applied this to myself recently (last few days). It isn’t necessarily a means to lower us back to 0 or where we did this last. Rather, it’s a way to be thankful for progress and, hopefully, realign from 0. I can’t speak for anyone else, but I need this from time-to-time.

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Well I’ve never looked into it, never interested me. Like yeah, I’ve heard people mentioning it but that’s it. And now it sparkled my interest, like I’m missing something important.
I kinda thought that it’s a change in how we perceive things.

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