one of the things im working on in my life is trauma. i was just on reddit and made an account specifically to help people even though it was my own opinion. it helped me so i thought i would share. it was something regarding meditation. this guy jumped in and said my take was probably the most stupid he has ever heard. he called me blind and number of other things. i tried to be polite and it just made me angry to where i raged off and deleted the post and my account. im sure they are all laughing at me.
i have experienced a lot… in the occult field but im not perfect. i got so pissed off… i guess because it boggled my mind a complete asshole stranger says i dont know what im talking about when i literally experienced it directly in my life. he was a complete ass about it.
i raged off my phone and i have had underlying issues of anger in my life. i was diagnosed very bad aspergers and i literally cant help the rage that comes over me sometimes. i hate labels and refuse to believe what doctors tell me because putting a label on myself to me is overall bad. im not my body…
i raged for almost 30 mins and broke something.
i was wondering if someone who practices this stuff can get angry and pissed off and still find success. everytime i wanna meditate someone pisses me off and i get out of the mood. this is something i know im gonna have to work on. i wanna be better and im trying. i was just wondering if i can still have magickal success if i get angry maybe more often than i should… or if godself will hold me back until i mature with this.
thank you everybody. this is the only forum i been on where i met so many nice people. indont have good luck other places i go. i dont have social media… i just created a reddit account to help… kinda from ehat i know is true in my heart and wanted to see what everyone else thought about it… and see their reactions. im all for difference of oppinions but this guy acted like a complete ass basically calling me a fraud… in that subtle sneaky way too…
i was just wondering if i can still have magickal success (clairvoyance etc) even if i struggle with anger from time to time. and i mean rage… like punching walls etc. i always feel bad after like im not mature enough for magick… but my life has been a living hell and when the anger bubbles up its so hard to stop
You need to learn how to properly regulate your emotions. Meditation can help but raging to the point of breaking things over a random internet comment is not a good way to go through life. It will hold you back from a lot.
Rage has its place in magick, particularly in the application of baneful work, but you have to be able to let it go. It has to be completely released within a ritual, you can’t hold onto it. To paraphrase Socrates, rage is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die.
In your mundane life, my advice would be to seek out therapy because what you described is very unhealthy behavior and may be a possible symptom of a larger illness, like intermittent explosive disorder.
i have parkinsons disease and i know it doesnt help. thanks darkest. ill work on some things. i dont really have any interest in baneful magick. i know its not normal behavior but i also just lost my best friend and was diagnosed with parkinsons so im extra on edge. i do see a doctor too… i will try to come up with ways to control this.and i will tell my doc about it
I know this is an occult forum, but sometimes, medical intervention might be necessary. If I were you, I would find a certified psychologist and see if there might some medication that can help. Parts of your brain are out of sync with the rest, and it’s unlikely to be related to either your Asperger’s or your Parkinson’s diagnosis.
Spiritually, I would contact the archangel Raphael and ask him to guide you to the correct method for dealing with the explosive rage. One of his abilities is helping you find the right doctor.
Well that’s the whole problem, and it’s not your fault. That site is troll city central, full of click-farm often paid, integrity-free assholes. It’s a basic abuser technique to prevent people in a victim pool from being able to support each other, and one way to do that is to seed the pool with bad actors.
It’s unlikely this person believed what he was saying, and was trying to stop you helping the people who actually needed it.
The best thing to do with these is ignore them. They are parasites that feed on the negative attention. You may find it heartening when you see the thumbs down ratio them, but blocking is easier.
Yes. It’s not that great for your health but you can balance it later… “everything in moderation, including moderation”
It just sounds like you had an “emotional flashback” due to trauma. I think this is a totally normal trauma response - your system has learned this as a successful survival response, but now it responds that way when it’s not so helpful, and it takes a little time and practice to unlearn but it can be done. You start by noticing when you’re getting a flashback and interrupting it. This is also called CPTSD or Complex PTSD.
In qigong the same concept is considered as a blockage of emotional energy that causes you to re-experience the emotions from he trauma when resonating energy comes in. Too much anger in qigong harms the liver, it’s said, so the liver is weakened and avoiding things like toxins that burden the liver is a good idea.
Bit more about it here from a psychology perspective - I like this guy because he’s spiritual but not new age and very no-nonsense and practical about it all. He’s a martial artists an ex-bouncer and gets the rage issue.
your so awesome mulberry thank you so much. idk why i thougjt it would be a good idea to even stop by there… it was an occult page but the thumbs down thing was actually the opposite… he was getting thumbs up by others or bots. I was about to be ganged up on i felt ot intuitivly so i deleted my post and entire account. i already feel tons better. im gonna watch this video too. I guess at least i know my response isnt good… and i dont want to hurt anybody… and im lucid enough to get back on track. just another bump in the road. thanks for being so cool on here. its the coolest forum i visit even if i just lurk alot.
I’m so glad we can help. There are better subreddits, I actually really like the Whiskey Tribe, those are good people, but that one sounds like the last place to be if you’re working on your mental-emotional health.
I can get really livid and deliberately destroy whole relationships out of anger, something I’ve been working on a lot these last years. Something that gave me a thing to aspire to, is the idea that “it takes strength to be kind”. And I want to be the strongest I can, in every way, it’s a core value of mine, so there’s a holistic reason to resolve such things from multiple levels, health of body, mind and spirit.
But the other thing here is nobody was hurt, you have nothing to regret and it’s worth forgiving yourself and just pick out the lessons learned for how you want to handle it if there’s a next time.
So you could look on it as a useful experience that you can feed into knowing more about yourself. Lemons and lemonade and all that
