I’m sure I’m not the only one here that can say they’ve been having weird spiritual experiences since they could walk. But what I’d like to know is, how do you turn it off…?
I’ve tried grounding but it never stops. I feel as though I’ve had to grow up in more ways than one over the years. It seems as though the “trials” come along with the mile stones in life. When I moved up from elementary to middle school… I had to learn how to deal with feeling many people at once and visions and visitations from new spirits that quite honestly frightened and hurt me (parasites). For a good while I thought I was insane. I didnt even know “auras” were a thing that other people could see too until my sophomore year of high school when I realized I wasnt insane. Before that I spent most nights crying. I finally had some answers but learning to be in control was a different thing altogether. Throughout high school I continued to have crazy experiences that would leave me completely rattled. I actually shared several of these experiences on a “spiritual group” through Facebook. Sharing helped a lot… but still didnt provide all the answers. Plus the whole white light workers thing just didnt set right with me. Actually once I found BALG I truly felt I had completely found everything I set out for. I got all my answers. Well… a good 95% of them anyway.
By the end of my senior year of high school, I felt I finally had things under control… for the most part. Things were good. I was learning and getting to grow at a comfortable rate. I learned how to control feeling other people and had enough experience with spirits to know how to handle them (thanks to Azazel). And through BALG I learned even more!
But now I am going to college. Another milestone, and along with it a new onslaught and NEW things that are beginning to develop that I just dont know if I’m ready for. I realize that this is the same process as before… I just gotta get used to it and learn how to control these things, but I guess I just want to be normal for once. Its lonely.
This is what I’m talking about… I’ll keep it as short as I can:
Lately… this whole omnipresence thing has been really really getting to me… I’m a little afraid to say what exactly I mean by this up on the forum for everyone to see, but if you’re interested then you can hit me up with a pm.
Also… I got visited by this being… well. It was 3 beings in one. (S)he (it had no gender) showed me a lot of things that quite honestly amazed and terrified me. The being visited for an hour and a half and after (s)he left… all this “proof” for what they showed me just started popping up EVERYWHERE. I found an article on “Flux Particle Theory” that explained the mathematics behind EXACTLY what they showed me… but somehow that made me sad. I feel like it was just too much… idk.
Since then manifesting things has become easier and happens almost instantly… which… also freaks me out. Normally I’d he happy about my achievements in manifesting but now it’s just happening so… so fast it’s like it gets hard to discern when I’m looking out… or looking in. I dont know if that makes sense and I hope it doesnt sound like I’m being dramatic…
I’m not sure if it’s related to their visit or not but I have started teaching myself math in my sleep. In class I didnt understand the lesson, and I was lost when I tried doing the homework. But I fell asleep one night and in my dreams… I was being taught the whole lesson, and more. And when I woke up I knew exactly what to do and how to do everything. I breezed through the homework in less than an hour. Which is pretty amazing for the amount that there was.
That part I’m not complaining about, it was pretty helpful. But everything else… idk.
Why am I this way… I need. A break.