Hey Dagoth, here is your reading 
Past influence(s) over how you’re approaching decisions in your life today :
The World in reverse
So, there has been a phase in your life that you’re basically still stuck in. Maybe not physically anymore, but mentally you never left that phase. There was something in your life that devoured all of your energy and all of your attention, with no positive outcome (it doesn’t feel like a “tangible” situation for me, maybe a former insecurity or anxiety is feeding your current insecurity, now?). Because you’re still stuck with this situation in your head you have left things grow stagnant; you never really moved forward from this point, although you are theoretically freed from it. This mental block is still with you and takes a big influence in how you approach things.
The thing(s) you’re avoiding but need to address in that context:
The Fool
Thats quite the cool card in this context and you probably know exactly what I’ll about to tell you: your journey has infinite potential but you need to muster up the courage to walk that path by yourself. You need to muster up the courage to be okay with not knowing what lies ahead of you and you need to muster up the courage to accept that you must be shaped by making actual experiences with the world. That might sound really generic but it needs to be addressed because I have the impression that you are locking yourself away for no reason at all.
What is making you feel different or at times not connected to the people and environment around you :
The Devil in reverse
I think that you had some kind of inner awakening about what aspects of your environment (and its people) are making you feel trapped. You perceived a new vision about your role in this world and it detached you from your current environment because someone had other plans for you (I feel like this is a very family-driven topic). The anxiety that I am sensing from the reversed World card could play a role in this detachment, too.
What could make you connect straight back to your environment and its people:
The Moon in reverse
I seldomly give out magical advice in my card readings, but this one yells “Release your fears!” at me. Your anxiety is currently separating you from a clear perception about you and others, overlooking all of the good stuff that you could experience. Maybe a simple whiteboarding session could help you out a little:
Where to start with breaking old patterns or habits that don’t serve you anymore:
The Empress
Nurture yourself. Be kind to yourself (dealing with anxiety is building up so much pressure in itself already, its important to be your own best companion!). Know yourself. Honor your “softer” aspects. (being “soft” is not a disparagement; people who have access to compassion and kindness and understanding for others are well needed in this world)