Everything you wrote looks pretty normal by this forum standards and I don’t think you’re mad, I had a spirit baby with a demonic King, and many of us on here are doing other weirdness, and have experiences from past lives, or alternate realities and planes.
Do you have any friends?
Because we won’t judge you on here and there are some great people, all different kinds, it’s not like a hivemind where we all think alike or anything.
Why don’t you pop over to this topic 
That Moment When 3 and chill out, be a bit social? You may enjoy being able to do that with people who are probably doing stuff that’s just as weird as you. 