I’m 18, as well.
A beginner, as well.
By typing, “The Mystery School” by “mindandmagick” on YouTube, you’ll get what I’m studying, at the moment.
It’s what got me interested into “magick”, and the, so-called, “occult”. And I’m now studying it, in a more detailed way, for the first time. Especially the first videos. In my opinion, the course degenerated, as time flowed. And this is just the opinion of a beginner. But I sense a lot of repetition, as time flowed, and little to no, new information.
It can be argued, in the recent weeks, his video are getting better, but I would say, it’s still no match for the first videos. Again, this is just my opinion based on my basic impressions of it.
Now, I don’t agree with everything he says, but how can we learn if we only listen to the things we agree to?
I know he [F.X] has programs, which should be paid to gain access to. But I can’t recommend, I haven’t tried them, yet.
But the first few videos of “The Mystery School” by “mindandmagick”, satisfy me. It’s nicely packed with information, here and there, and presented in a way, a beginner can easily understand the whole system of thought at it’s most basic level, although some concepts can go other the head of some [and I even believe, some concepts, the uploader himself is confused about, but keep in mind, it’s coming from his own understanding and is still valuable.] That, I can say.
Will it provide mastery over the, so-called, “forbidden arts”?
I doubt it.
But this is where I started, in my own path.
Hope this has been useful, at least.
On a side-note, I will check out the links of Lady_Eva, after I’ve completed the courses by F.X, which I bought, a few months ago.