Essentially, I had been seeing visions of blood red eyes, a realm of mutilations and a white snake for months, although the images should have been disturbing they were actually comforting so I researched it a few times, found nothing conclusive or even really informative. One day I was searching something completely irrelevant to the topic and felt the need to click a link to a topic here that seemed random in my search results. It had nothing in common with my experience but was about someone possibly being “called”, I don’t even remember the gist of it now. A while later I was seeing the same things again so looked it up again and it struck me to just check my history for that post again and explore the forum more. A short while after I had some answers and many more questions that google had failed to provide in many hours of looking…Not only that but what I consider to be proof that it wasn’t just some hallucination.
Some further experiences since joining have convinced me more so that I am stronger than I believed, or what others would have me believe. This is both encouraging and frightening so I am hesitent and not as deligent as I would like to be. It would be easier to ignore all this but I can’t, I am drawn to it one way or another and being among people who understand, enlighten and at some times test on the subject is rather special. Not to even mention the wealth of knowledge available. I stay because here I can learn that which is not open to most, not easily understood and some people are nice about it even to obvious trolls.
I don’t think I would leave, not permanently. I will dip in and out, while the occult, spirits, mysticism and magick are not something new to me, engaging in the path so intently can be very intimidating at times and alienate one even further from people they care about, or just people in general (although I can’t personally say that’s always such a bad thing).
But this is entirely too long of a post to answer such a simple question. So to summerize: it’s a good forum, with some good people, lots of good information and the only reason to leave would be if you think you know everything, which nobody does