About 2 weeks ago I felt something strange (I was a brand new member of the BALG forum at that time). This feeling filled my whole mind, and the name Abaddon as well. It was like a “Calling”, and it’s not gone. Somewhere inside I knew that I need a Patron, a Teacher, because up to now I was self-taught, and my progress stagnated.
So I answered to His call. This was my First Evocation of Abaddon (and He was the first God in this lifetime - as I know). The first discussion between Us has changed many things in me (and proved many of them). He opened my eyes. Finally I “got back” my stern, passionate, strict, tender Leader (He was before in my past lifes and far more).
So… after long years, I finally see the right way, and with Him on my side, I continue it but now… without any break. He won’t let me loss, I know, and He’ll keep me hard if I need to.
This is why these people are… “too much” to me from now.