He help up a mirror in the sense that when we are under stress and/or in a state of reduced inhibitions, we find out what we’re really like.
my personality changed to that of an adamantite dragon
…adamantite, purple, anything other than a fully rounded, realistic image of you you are - you identify with a shallow cartoon for children, is what I’m hearing.
But by this, you mean you think you’re all set with being some sort of “righeous” personality?
Yet, you’re the same guy that tried to kill someone.
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t have a judgement about killing… but it seems you do, or why would it be important to focus so much on being like a fictional character?
I could be wrong, but it sounds like, you’re running away from yourself, there are parts of you you really don’t want to look at, accept and deal with. Instead, you immerse yourself in anime rather than developing your own rich inner landscape, using other peoples borrowed inventions instead of merely being inspired by them.
I don’t know if you have astral parasites, but it would be weird if you didn’t, since they’re very common,are attracted by the sort of lifestyle you have been living, and could have influenced you losing your cool.
They don’t feed on luck - like I said, they feed on human energy, which luck is not - I suggested you research those for good reason.
It would also be in a parasites interests to keep you in a childish mindset, and not want you to do any introspection and internal development. The stronger you are the more you can see them and fight them off.
I recommend looking up ‘shadow work’, which is the art of coming to terms with your darker sides, letting them become part of your integrated whole instead of rejecting them and walking around as half a person that’s “good”.