So… here we go.
You need to start loving yourself again. Grief is totally okay and healthy but before you don’t feel better - and you will feel better - there is not a chance for reconciliation. Because it’s important for you to be happy and love yourself in order to be in a healthy relationship.
Love yourself and know, that you deserve love and that rejection from one person does not mean, that you are not lovable for others.
It’s worth the effort because you will feel much better in the end. Respect your feelings.
If you want reconciliation, don’t forget yourself while focusing on your partner.
When you grow, there will be new possibilities.
I know it might seem impossible but it’s not and it will happen. You will feel better again
You have the choice between responsibility and desire. You are responsible for yourself and you have to accept her decisions. Although you might feel like that’s not right and it hurts. Have trust into this situation without compulsion.
Seems like you don’t appreciate what you have at the moment enough because you are very focused on the negative tensions.
You can grieve about your loss. Let your feelings out. But also accept that it’s over for now. In order to have a chance or a new beginning you have to end the past.
As I told you… I think both of you need some time to work on your selfs, to meet each other again with a „fresh coat“.
I hope it resonates