The Theoricus Journal

Journals, Group Rituals & Free Readings
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DATE:12/14/2025

DAY: Sunday, day of Sol. YHVH Eloah ve Daath, Michael, Malachim. Gold or yellow candles. Frankincense incense.

TIME: 09:58 AM PST

MOON PHASE:

WEATHER: 63°F and partly cloudy.

PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: Legs and ankles hurt, sitting in diamond pose reveals lower back problems. Shoulders and arms hurt.

MENTAL CONDITIONS: Slightly depressed.

SLEEP: Poor.

DREAMS: None recalled.

MOOD:Low.

RITUALS PERFORMED: OAA Lesson One. Fourfold Breathwork. Body Awareness Ritual. Relaxation Ritual. Qabbalistic Cross Ritual. Invoking Ritual of the Pentagram. Qabballistic Cross Ritual. Invoking the four Powers of Earth. Middle Pillar Ritual. Meditation. Qabbalistic Cross Rítual. Lesser Invoking Ritual of the Pentagram. Qabbalistic Cross Ritual. All Adorations.

PERFORMANCE: TBD

RESULTS: TBD

TASKS:

Got out of bed after breakfast, got lightheaded and nauseous, so got back into bed before lunch.

Deodorant applied.

Did not brush teeth nor hair.

No therapy day today.

THOUGHTS:

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Did a soul scan for a new arríval. Other than that been dozing off mostly. Payback for having to endure witching hours awake.

Watching The Last Crusade and wondering exactly how much lost occult history exists, and what exactly Hitler obtained.

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DATE: 12/15/2025

DAY: Monday, day of the Moon (aka Luna). Shaddai El Chai, Gabriel, Kerubim. Silver, gray or white candles, Jasmine incense.

TIME: 08:40 AM PST

MOON PHASE: Luna in 3rd Qtr Moon 06°20’ Scorpio.

WEATHER: 56°F Mostly cloudy, rained overnight.

SLEEP: Usual, little sleep in slices of hours.

DREAMS: None recalled as usual.

MENTAL CONDITIONS: Some schizophrenia related hallucinations, depression symptoms.

PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: Sore ankles, sore legs, sore arms, sore neck.

MOOD Fair.

RITUALS PERFORMED: TBD

PERFORMANCE: TBD

RESULTS: TBD

TASKS: Brushed teeth, ate breakfast, used bathroom. Shower will have to be up to 2nd shift. Not sure if I’m on therapy list.

THOUGHTS: Initiation into Hermetics vs OAA.

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THOUGHTS:

Replace OAA with IIH. Same priority that OAA had.

RITUALS PERFORMED: Adorations (AttLotU). (LRVH). Qabalistic Cross Ritual/Lesser Ritual of the Pentagram (Earth Invoking)/Qabalistic Cross Ritual. Adoration (LRVH). Adorations (AttLotU, LRVH). Middle Pillar Ritual. Adoration (LRVH). Adoration (AttLotU).

PERFORMANCE:

Visualization that Neophyte Formula had sucked. About to clarify a few details and do Planet of the Day Ritual.

RESULTS: TBD

Wrote down banishing Hexagrams. Nwill do pots tomorrow.

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THOUGHTS:

Perhaps shadow work is necessary. Perhaps I need to quit being frightened by the thought of demons, and other spirits. Some are obviously not in the best interest of anyone who cares summon them, but this is what makes or breaks the no magician and the human being. This and the idea of the Golden Dawn, and the Baptist Church are holding my evolution and Ascension back.

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THOUGHTS:

Not doing full diary template today, as not a lot of time to fiddle with today. Want to do Planet of the Day Invoking ritual today, after Banishing all seven. Then Banishing Mars and Invoking Mercury tomorrow.

Plans have changed to do this tomorrow instead of today. No explanation required.

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Have you tried using astrology dice? They are used for divination and are a great way to learn astrology. You can find them on Amazon for $5. I’ve started using them myself.

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No, Ive not. Thank you for that info :slight_smile:

DATE: 12/17/2025

DAY: Wednesday, day of Mercury. Elohim Tzabaoth, Raphael, Beni Elohim. Orange candles, Lavender incense.

TIME: 08:00 AM PST

MOON PHASE:

WEATHER:

SLEEP: Good

DREAMS: None recalled.

MENTAL CONDITIONS: Slight depression. Felt good hearing from my CNA I have a plant to that it is blooming again, with watering, care and by speaking good to it.

PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: Feeling okay. Sore muscles from therapy. Ate breakfast (Scrambled eggs with cheese, bacon, some watermelon, coffee).

MOOD: Good.

RITUALS PERFORMED: Fourfold breath, foot to groin. Body Awareness Ritual. Relaxation Ritual. Qabalistic Cross Ritual. Lesser Ritual of the Pentagram, Earth Invoking. Qabalistic Cross Ritual. Greater Banishing Ritual of the Hexagram (all six besides Mercury). Greater Invoking Mercury Ritual of the Hexagram, charge. Invoking the Four Powers of Earth. Middle Pillar Ritual. Zelator Meditation, license to depart. QC/LBRP/QC.

PERFORMANCE: TBD

RESULTS: TBD

TASKS:

Get out of bed and into wheelchair.

Use bathroom and wash hands.

Shower with extra body wash and shampoo.

Brush hair.

Brush teeth after lunch.

Therapy and or exercise.

THOUGHTS:

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09:00 All tasks completed except for brushing teeth, applying deodorant and exercise. Preferably a long amount of time but low impact so I’m burning calories, but not breaking a huge sweat.

About to commence with Zelator Formula, then Planet of the Day Ritual.

MOON PHASE: Balsamic moon in 0°12’ Sagittarius.

09:20 Neophyte Formula completed.

Performance: Fair. See end below.

Results: Backtracking, need to complete all Neophyte writing assignments, projects, and reading as well as minimum 30 days uninterrupted work. Example: roommate tried multiple times to interrupt me, but simply observed and continued. Sore throat, was very raspy during Middle Pillar Ritual.

In regard to the Zelator Formula, need to memorize again two rítuals: Banishing Saturn Hexagram and Invoking the Four Powers of Earth. Perfect persistent practice makes perfect.

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Body Awareness Ritual: Ankles still touchy. Possible issue persisted by walking on toes onstead of heel to toe, putting pressure on ankles. Lower legs sore. More range of motion with right shoulder (shampooed my own hair for first time in a year). Upper arms slightly sore.

Tarot Card of the Day: Three of Hearts.

Love, beauty, happiness, new love relationship (love triangle if surrounded by spades). Creative talent, artistic ability, creative achievement such as poetry or artwork. Fertility, blood and life, prayer, religion, a growing embryo, increase of something beautiful such as blooming flowers, a developing love affair, a growing child. A small celebration. A job promotion.

Advanced Tarot Contemplation Ritual:

XIII Death. Scorpio. Child of the Great Transformers, Lord of the Gates of Death. Imaginative Intelligence. Nun, fish, 50. Change or Transformation.

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Did chant along with Rufus opús on hís YouTube Zeus chant. Stared at Mercury pentacle while chanting, and my ears perked up at the amount of communication going on. Had lunch. After coffee and after lunch, was serenaded by the Nutcracker crew and given a present by Mrs Claus and a Christmas soldier from Pelican Ridge and the Council on senior aging. A níce warm fleece/faux fur throw. And a card hand crafted as well.

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Too drowsy to do the ritual work that was not done. Tomorrow morning the reset will occur.

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I had to catch myself from going overboard tonight.
I know my vast past, vast opportunities that could have dramatically changed my life. But those details are hidden.
So I’m watching the Jingle Bells music fest, and get upset at all these young folks looking in the start of their prime in their life, and all are completely out of my league. They’re there, and egad, they’re having the time of their life.
My Ego gets offended, because it realizes this, and the truth may hurt, but I speak truth to my Ego (and Id). You’re older. You didn’t take the advantages offered to you when in your younger years, and you didn’t age gracefully. Those days are long gone with anyone of those young folks. That did hurt. But lying to yourself eventually hurts more.
So where from here … I guess only time will tell.

I will never have a “hot bod", despite knowing what I do for them. Only a penis transplant and hormone replacent therapy as well as five hours exercise daily, will reset me toward a hot bod.

I’m not a know it all. I can read, luckily, content of knowledge retention, that is questionable.

I doubt myself and double guess myself when originally I was correct.

I don’t concentrate on my good points or aspects of myself often.

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DATE: 12/18/2025

DAY: Thursday. Day of Jupiter. El. Tzadkiel, Sachiel, Chashmalim. Blue candles, Cedar incense.

TIME: 14:40 (2:40 PM) PST

MOON PHASE: Balsamic in Sagittarius

WEATHER: 68°F, partly cloudy and sunny

MENTAL CONDITIONS: Slight depression. Envy. That was the root of the upset last night.

PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: Sore right foot, sore lower back. Looser rotator cuff in right shoulder. Sore arms and legs from therapy.

MOOD: Good

RITUALS PERFORMED: TBD

Body Awareness

Instant Relaxation Ritual

Fourfold Breath, Foot to groin breathing

Ascent into the Cube of Space

Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram

Greater Banishing Ritual of the Hexagram

Greater Invoking Ritual of the Hexagram

Analysis of the Keyword

Invoking the Four Powers of Earth

Middle Pillar Ritual

Body in Assiah Ritual

Zelator Meditation

Grounding and Earth grade exercises

Lesser Invoking Ritual of the Pentagram

PERFORMANCE:

RESULTS:

TASKS:

Ate Breakfast and got out of bed

Used restroom and washed hands

Brushed teeth and brushed hair

Applied deoderant and got dressed

Went to Occupational Therapy

Ate lunch

Went to Physical Therapy (walked 450 feet total)

THOUGHTS:

Had coffee and tried to survey movement in room, rotating 360 is a no go.

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THOUGHTS

Due to fatigue and dinner soon to arrive, I opted to go back to bed. No ritual work was done.

Thought trains affect emotions. A very good reason why controlling thought is a beneficial act. Speech and action as well. Thoughts also send out like energy and sometimes are an unknown transmitter to other people who can receive to thoughts of others.

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I should get back to reading the Ritual of the Hexagram. Tomorrow I will arrange furniture so that I can do a complete circle. That will help in doing the planet of the day.

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I awoke about thirty minutes ago, and my CNA gave me a chocolate pudding and an orange jello (I asked for snacks). Up watching Family Guy now.

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DATE: 12/19/2025

DAY: Friday, day of Venus (and Anael or Haniel). YHVH Tzabaoth, Haniel, Elohim. Green (or Red?) Candles, Rose incense.

TIME: 12:48 PM PST

MOON PHASE: Luna in Capricorn.

WEATHER: High 60s. Sunny. Partly cloudy.

SLEEP: Fair. Awoke briefly during witching hours.

DREAMS: None recalled.

MENTAL CONDITIONS: Depression lifting a bit. Concerned I’m not having dreams or nightmares, or possibly unconscious or dead.

PHYSICAL CONDITIONS: Sitting up in wheelchair. Right (and left) foot and ankle hurts a little bit. Middle back seems twisted. Had diarrhea this morning after breakfast (second movement).

MOOD: Good.

RITUALS PERFORMED: TBD

Did Neophyte Formula in AM.

PERFORMANCE: TBD

NF was fairly smooth. Some jokesters like to laugh as I’m in earshot.

RESULTS: TBD

Slight relief.

TASKS:

Got out of bed before breakfast, and into wheelchair.

Used restroom, washed hands.

Applied deoderant.

Brushed teeth.

Combed hair.

Exercised in small segments.

THOUGHTS:

Trying to make a Compendium of Gods.

Not sure why. Amun and Ptah come to mind, perhaps the creator is looking for a student?

Planet of the Day: Venus has been duly invoked in the name of YHVH Tzabaoth. It was a tad complicated with the wheelchair. But it was done.

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On silence and grounding exercises…

Listening - for a consecutive number of days, listen, don’t try to talk. Don’t talk to talk in other words. I tried this and found out what a blabbermouth I am.

Grounding - feel the gravity of the earth beneath you, how your limp body just says then sinks, then an air exercise, find how light the air in front, back, below, and above is, and rise with it.

Silence exercises are exercises that I need to learn, as I blab far too much on the internet about my life. it’s also helpful in terms of conversing with people and retaining the content of the conversation.

The grounding exercise is helpful as in To Shin Do, there was a DVD of the katas, called Mountains of Earth. The point in the earth grade is to be unmovable, and not to be able to be pushed or pulled without a Counter-Strike involved.

A more efficient example is quicksand. How quicksand slowly pulls one down without the ability to rise back up, unless you have something thrown toward you, like a branch, rope, or vine. So it is with gravity.

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Exhausted and drowsy, and no more coffee ór hot water available, cannot wait until my sister gets here tomorrow, so I will have flavoring packs for ordinary water. Plus to see and talk with her, first and foremost. But snacks are a plus.

Ancient Egypt lore isn’t going anywhere, tomorrow is hours away. I will work on it later. My main focus is creator/creatrix, sun and moon deities. Then sweeping east and west after conquering gods and goddesses of ancient Egypt. For the Compendium.

Venus was invoked, still noting changes in the environment.

Tomorrow Venus gets banished and Saturn gets invoked. Then noting environment.

Envy of the young, sexy, rich and successful is still present in me. A note from shadow work.