No. I will do better than this.
Damn, that dude I respect made an objective statement about me very matter of factly with no particular emotional undertones one way or the other which could have been perceived as an insult but instead I found it amusing. Fuck dude yah got me. This does, of course, require actually getting got.
Some reflections on Enochian magick
In what follows I will do my best to speak plainly as to the level of my practice while attempting to be universally useful in a variety of ways to serious, dedicated occult practitioners.
Now that I have stepped back from it a bit, it is rather clear that Enochian magick practiced to the degree in which I was practicing it really puts you into a mindset that is quite removed from the material world.
It is interesting because over the past however long it’s been, I have experienced such profound change in my material life. There is a feeling of having stepped into new worlds, over and over again, for me in my life. My future expectations are generally expectations of adventurous expansion and extensive, deep learning, and there is nothing else which I find to be as motivating as this.
When I look back over the course of my magickal practice, I see cycles, ebbs and waves, movement between extreme polarities. I now believe that I am and for a bit have been moving out of the furthermost extent of one end of this polarity and moving in the other direction. When I go deep into the magickal, wondrous things occur, and my material life transforms and is preserved. When I go deep into the material, wondrous things occur, and my magickal life transforms and is preserved.
If I have trained you well, then you will be thinking of interleaving. If you take nothing else, and I mean nothing else from me, take interleaving. It is perhaps the most useful concept I could ever impart.
This is life to me - choosing what and how to interleave.
But anyways, back to the topic at hand. I do not wish to provide myself with behavioral inclinations towards feelings of obligation based on fear/guilt arising from semi-public proclamations, but nonetheless, I enjoy and feel called to do what I do.
I, perhaps unsurprisingly, have a vagueish plan for when I intend to speak the Keys once more. There should be no rush to these things, nor should there be a sense of obligation to angels to do their practice, or some feeling of “if I don’t do this then something bad will happen due to missing out.” If you don’t do it, then you will not receive the results, but you will be free to do something else.
The next time around, perhaps I will prepare, allow my mind to begin to simmer in Enochian energies by doing the special formations for the Pleasure and Happiness cycles, and then from there proceed into the magick of the Keys with no consolidation weeks in between and progress steadily on through. It is likely that I will want a break between the Aethyrs and the Loagaeth tables, and however long that break may be, if there is too much time spent in dalliance then the pathworking will likely lack the focus and commitment I would like it to have, and there are also material concerns, as I have to design my life around this pathworking, rather than designing magick around my mundane (if it can be said to be so) life.
Ebbs and flows, waves and undulations.
It is the reality that I have little idea as to whether what most of what I am putting out here is original due to my lack of access to various things. This does not particularly matter to me, I suppose. I know that I did not come up with many of the concepts in the RotNS on my own and lifted many of them directly from the grimoire Lucifer and the Hidden Demons, which should be quite apparent. Others are almost rips from pop pseudo-psychology. Others were very much so more received ideas with varying levels of amusing synchronicity. The Enochian magick which I have developed, explored, and come to understand for myself in my own practice is quite useful to me in my own practice, and in sharing it, it would please me to know that others find it to be an acceptable practice of high quality.
I, personally, find the Freedom Sex Money Power Success paradigm to be a rather useful set of magickal practices and concepts which I will perhaps return to once again. There is the possibility that Money could be replaced, but certainly not at least until after more extensive work in this area, and I would not remove that unless I were satisfied with my level of wealth. Even when you are about as far out to the mystical end of the spectrum as you can possibly get, I believe that money is an essential connection to the material world which should be maintained. Similarly, even when about as far out to the material end of the spectrum as you can possibly get, I believe a connection to the mystical is essential.
At the end of the day, magick is here for you. I believe some good ole practical magick to get what you want is always going to be a great idea. Deep mystical journeys into the depths of magickal reality are pretty cool, but so is getting laid getting paid amirite. Or, like, doing that even better.
On a related note, I find it difficult to see myself ever really dropping Enochian sex magick as a usual regular practice. It’s just too damn efficient and too fucking effective, and those things I can get behind. I mean it just does basically everything and takes up almost no extra time if you already usually orgasm on a regular basis, and for an interleaver like myself, sigil magick is amazing. It also energetically creates and encourages sources of happiness and pleasure, which is a pretty nice combination.
Enochian Power Magick (Universal Magick) I do like, but think that I would really only do it for freeform practical magick if I were already doing Enochian rather extensively, such as speaking the Keys. I like the power Enochian energies bring into sex magick, but Enochian Power Magick, as is perhaps implied by my name for it, really juices you up into being a power freak, which isn’t bad, but isn’t always what I’m trying to do. I think it is a good energy to have and to experience, certainly, though. Literally just saying the word “power” has a very different feel to me now than it has been before, and it can be good to remind yourself energetically that magick is still powerful even when it is not Power magick.
I am also of the opinion that it is very likely a good idea to regularly perform the RotNS while going deep in Enochian if that is a demonic energy which suits you. You don’t have to be a full-time hater, and perhaps this is simply my unique experience given my various circumstances, which involved extended solitude regarding humans while my mind was becoming a beacon of supreme radiance, but it can be the case that if you don’t connect with demonic energy, you will lose the will to do the usual things which it is generally a good idea to do when it comes to humans, especially those who are not hopped up on intensely divine magick energies. You forget how base, corrupt, and absolutely material these beings are. A little RotNSing never hurt anybody, right?
Oh yeah, this dude’s a hater, and even better, we can be haters together. It’s a good thing to remember that not everyone is a hater. I can sense it, radiating from within you, like a dark pulse of energy. I know that it is not directed at me, but is an invitation.
It is also, most certainly definitely absolutely 100% the case that I just don’t see how these people live largely material lives without getting psyched up on delight. Really I don’t know how they do it. It’s not like it just happens in the ritual. It carries over into your experience and arises spontaneously.
Maybe I’m just a thoroughly demonic dude, but angel energy alone just doesn’t cut it if I have to do lots of things around relatively lots of humans. I am, thankfully, long past the delusion of good and evil, and I also understand that my having and using knowledge with “good” intentions does not make me a scheming, psychopathic manipulator. Well, at the least it makes me one with good intentions, and I assure you, the results if I didn’t do this intentionally would be much more suffering for myself and others.
I, personally, am at ease with what The Institution has decided to call people of my personality type, regardless of the fact that I myself am much more functional in my career and personal lives than many others, who are complete toxic shitbags, whom I have had the misfortune of meeting. Fortunately for me, the caricatures of psychopaths in pop culture tend to just be literal crazy serial killers or very charming, good looking, and likable serial killers. It’s just so ridiculously extreme that it’s hard to believe there are actually people like that who don’t literally axe kill (redrum is not allowed in this text editor) people in a serial fashion, I suppose as opposed to a parallel fashion. Well I certainly would include interleaving, that just makes good sense.
Narcissists, on the other hand, oh they get fucked. Toxic person? Bam, call em a narcissist, case closed. Instantly demonized and perceived as “generally believably shitty.” Not exactly my problem, but that is my observation of the masses’ amusing pop armchair psychologizing. Remember folks, gaslighting means no go, at least for me. Do all of them gaslight everyone? To my knowledge, I have interacted with exactly one who didn’t gaslight me, or should I say, try to gaslight me, so I suppose not.
I literally just have a vague idea as to something or some things I want to write about and then just put words down as I go along. If there is some sort of cohesive arc to what is going on here, then it’s probably a result of my ingrained learning when it comes to writing. In this essay I will abandon the concept of an introduction and allow freedom in my expression without being “quirky” while bearing in mind conventions of various styles and varying levels of skill within those styles to create the post-post-modern neo-contemporary hyper occult writing fusion, brought to you by yours truly.
Where are we even going with this? Who knows dude, shinri’s just free associating at this point. Woah, now we’re over here. Woah, now we’re over there.
I guess I’ll stop now. Oh no, I have conformed to the conventions of a standardized conclusion. I could have ended at “yours truly,” for that spicy end on an unresolved note thing which ultimately becomes a sort of resolution within the artform.
What just happened dude. Who’s even reading this. What?
What?
No. I will be clear.