The Keys of Ocat: A Necromantic Journey

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I seem to have hit another bit of a slump. I’m almost disappointed in myself for how often these slumps appear in my life, except… except I think it’s kinda to be expected for someone whose home full with very low commitments in life. Essentially I have all of about six days a month I have requirements and the other days are freebies, mine to do whatever I want to with them.

Most people would think it was great, but me? Meh it reminds me off of when my daddy was forced to retire after a massive heart attack and finding out he had agent orange cancer-pretty much everywhere. When you don’t have enough time, well many of us wish we had more vacation time, or time off and here I am with the rest of my life in front of me, still and little idea of what I want to do with it most days.

I have ideas and plans and thoughts and all of that. I have things I want to do, things I should do and yet… Getting myself to do them is like pulling teeth. I have even gone through a slump recently with not caring if things were as tidy as I like them, un/fortunately I can never let that side of life go long, I know it’s harder to clean when things are a mess and well it doesn’t actually take long to do any of it since I’m always alone.

The other thing is I recently decided to change some things up, as I feel like the herbal supplement I’ve been taking daily is having a few negative impacts to my life, despite being mostly a fun herb. I had personal reasons for swapping nearly full time to this particular thing, but I guess for now I’ve decided to see if that herb is what is causing a few of these random not so normals for me. As such I’m sure at least part of this slump can be blamed on this change, as I’ve often noted that any change be it dietary or routine wise, tends to effect me negatively at first. It’s only been about 30 days that I’ve been taking this particular herb very consistently though, so I would assume that it will be short lived as far as how hard it affects me goes.

I also decided it has been months since I could be outside for more than a few minutes due to the cold, so I should probably get my ass outside, even if it’s just on the balcony, for a few minutes everyday. It seems silly for someone who loves the sun and has endless amounts of free time, but for some reason I just don’t want to go out, period- so I am making myself, I’m sure I need more sun and fresh air.

The other change in life is where I am sleeping. I’ve noticed increasingly that I have shoulder pain from how I sit for so long coloring, sketching or on the computer and the couch just isn’t cutting it. Throw into the mix that my son wanted to pre-rearrange the living room, for when @Anziel_Merkaba moves in to the set up that we expect will be needed for the living room to be part time living room, part time son’s bedroom. We did it around 5 am Saturday morning, before we went to bed. He was just so excited and I couldn’t see any reason to say no. My couch has literally sat on every wall in the room due to this- just trying to figure out what feels the most natural as far as room assembly goes.

That’s all fine and good and I think I do like the arrangement that we agreed upon except… it puts me directly across from the tv, a black screen. I really don’t want to risk rolling over and freaking out in the middle of the night and either end of the couch is just as bad as the other. I do have a full sized bed but, its such an old school cheap mattress, that it literally hurts my hips to lay in it, hurts my back to lay on my back etc. So I ordered a 3 inch lavender infused memory foam mattress pad.

Yes I know it’s either oils or chemicals as far as the lavender goes but, I like the scent and it seemed like a cool idea, who knows maybe it would help me sleep and if not? Well I did have the notion it might kinda just always scent the room lightly, like an air freshener. I’ve only had it long enough to sleep on it once, and my hips still hurt every time I woke up to roll over but… I was able to fall asleep on the bed easier than before so I’m hopeful. I’m real hopeful because if this doesn’t help, I’ll be casting magic for a new mattress to replace this one- seems like a lot of hassle lol.

There’s also a new neighbor. Last week one was evicted out of the efficiency, and two days ago someone moved into my old apartment. Kinda weird honestly since that was my space for so long, and I still don’t quite feel like this new, bigger apartment is my space yet. It will eventually but I’m still in the awkward, eh idk bout this stage with it.

I know my random rambles rarely make sense, but the point I am slowly getting around to is that it seems I had a recent knowing where I need to be doing something magical each and everyday even if it’s minor. This has caused me to pause and think about what minor magical thing I can do each day to make sure I hit this lowly bench mark of if it’s minor it counts. Probably not the best take to have on things but it’s been my take since I came into the information that it was time for me to make sure this is part of my daily life.

The good news is, it already is a part of my daily life. I kinda thought so but since I’ve been taking mental note of when I do minor magical things on a daily basis it’s become more clear that there is something every single day that I do. Be it influencing a game in an attempt to increase the rate I see a particular map, or playing doctor mommy and bandaging up a wounded son, or simply working on artwork that will at some point, if not that point be used for a servitor- I am doing something magical everyday.

I obviously have spent some time reflecting, and doing just one more thing magically than I would everyday, as well as just one more activity than I would normally in my day as far as getting out of my apartment, eating right and things like that go.

Unfortunately, sleep has been a fickle mistress and I’ve been struggling with my daily routine. That’s not incredibly surprisingly with me, change any one factor in life and I go through a period of time where I either sleep way more than usual, or not enough. The trouble has been I’ve wanted to sleep, and have found myself instead trancing out for literally hours and even if I’m going to bed at 2 am dog tired, I’m still awake at noon without any sleep and then I end up sleeping until late in the evening.

It doesn’t really matter, I do always prefer to be awake at night, but it’s thrown my schedule a bit off and left me feeling at times rather unmotivated.

Despite this, I seem to have an influx of entities reaching out to me. I started my last week with an entity that’s name I won’t share while projecting, then Ariel popped up in my dreams, and then the next day I ran into Lord Bale while projecting. Bale, I’m assuming is Bael, despite the fact it sounded just like hay bale to me, and they appeared to have a head made from a skull- cow, horse or something to that affect. Anpu has also been around recently, dreams about an ex forum member cursing me, and my ex-mother in law popped up randomly on my social media liking my profile pictures.

Tuesday, I also noticed that the Lily’s I planted were begging to pop up. I had three bulbs so I was excited to see all three peaking out at me.

Then last night I get up and found that while I was sleeping, I purchased a book that I had not come across before.

Entering Hekate’s Garden: The Magick, Medicine & Mystery of Plant Spirit Witchcraft: Brannen, Cyndi: 9781578637225: AmazonSmile: Books

I found that odd, as yesterday morning I came across a thread where @DarkestKnight mentions that Jason Miller has put together an entire system of magic dedicated Hecate. I wasn’t surprised as I read his Protection and Reversal Magick defense manual, more than a year ago and noticed Hecate was a big deal to Miller but…

I dedicated my Lily’s to Hecate when I planted them, and I keep having odd random thoughts about devotion, entities, and Hecate. So I did some looking around and ended up getting his book on Strategies to practical magic, just to see if any of it included Hecate, with plans to reread his defense manual in the near future. Wasn’t really sure what I was looking for.

But I managed to find exactly what I was looking for in this book that I purchased while I was apparently sleep walking. (again- guess it’s just part of life at this point) It’s pretty religious as far as the author and their position on Hecate goes but, I found why the book was for me, rather quickly.

Plant spirits, are something I’ve encountered and that I plan to spent a lot more time with in the future, particularly now that I have windows and a balcony, and places I can grow things. I was just like wait, in all I’ve come across about Hecate, I’ve not encountered this association with plant spirits- somehow, but I should have!

I found rather quickly the author of this book feels about plant spirits the way I do, that each plant has a main/master spirit or archetype and most if not all individual plants have a more minor, individual spirit that has a similar feel as the other of the species do- essential each plant species is a race of it’s own spirits.

I ended up returning my kindle version of this book, and ordering a hard back. At first I thought maybe this new found working meant I was done with the Keys of Ocat, but I realized after quite some time contemplating, it’s really just an extension of the work I’m doing with this. I’m using herbs and plants with this work, and I’ve worked with Hecate several times already, so I I think it’s more of a call to go deeper with Hecate before I move through the rest of the entities as I keep on planning to do.

Each time I go to start it however, something comes up, and I find myself delayed another day. I never consider it a major ordeal, I’m doing something magical everyday, I’m working with the sigils from the Angels of Omnipotence as I still have a commitment with several more angels, though I’m no longer working at the pace of the book club and honestly I have plenty of time in my day and this authors banishing methods and rituals for working with the plant spirits and Hecate as well as her daughters fit quite nicely with what I’m doing with the Keys of Ocat.

As such, I’ve decided to consider it an extension of this work, a deepening of the relationship I’ve only just began to have with Hecate and I’m going to include it with this journal, as eventually I know the phase will pass and I will be onto working with the other entities related to the Keys of Ocat as well.

Unfortunately I don’t blow through grimoires like @anon39079500 or at least those that I have, I wasn’t comfortable sharing and this one is a lot of deeper work, and really transformative to my life and my practices, rather than me just evoking one being after another for specific tasks.

Oh and my 3 Lily bulbs, decided to give me four sprouts yesterday. I was super happy with three, and downright ecstatic to see four, would be the addition to my little family.