So I’m starting to think that the main reason I haven’t been getting accurate answers from Tarot is because I’ve been doing online readings instead of using my physical cards.
Other than convenience, the main reason I’ve been doing that is because I’ve been getting frustrated when a card comes out, and I am unsure if it was supposed to be reversed or upright. I don’t have to worry about that when I’m doing an online reading.
You know how you’ll be shuffling the cards thinking of your question and then the card flies out across the room or it comes out and falls against something so the way it originally came out gets reversed.
Yeah, I’ve been getting tired of trying to decipher whether or not the card was meant to come out upright or reversed so I have been doing way more online readings.
Anyway, so I just did a reading using my physical cards (RWT) Asking about the potential love outcome between him and another girl and I got the sixth of cups.
I also asked
-is the relationship between us meant to work out
-is there relationship meant to develop into something more meaningful
-Are humans meant to be in monogamous relationships?
-Are humans meant to be in polyamorous relationships?
I got Yes cards for each answer so that didn’t help much.
When I looked up, what the six of cups means for potential love outcomes, it was talking about helping heal inner child wounds.
The healthy side of me isn’t jealous. She read that and was like oh good for him. Hopefully, she can truly help him with something from his past that he’s dealing with.
But then there’s the other side of me that immediately got upset thinking why doesn’t he want to do that with me?
Probably because of the goddamn hexes that I’ve done on him and the forced self reflection spell buried in my backyard 
I did the hexes over a year ago, but I think they may still be affecting him because when I talked to the girl, she told me that he was telling her things that he wasn’t telling me in regards to not feeling like himself, fighting inner Demons, going through things in life, etc. and I just did The forced self reflection spell 3/4 weeks ago. He talk to me and tell me stuff but from talking to her seems like he was telling her more.
I know part of the reason that Things aren’t working out the way that I want them to is because of negative feelings and resentment that I’m still holding onto.
The healthy version of me can let him go because she is wants him to happy whether it’s with her or someone else. But that’s not the version that doing all this spellwork (I actually haven’t don’t THAT much)
I want what I want and I want it exactly the way that I fucking picture it. My goddamn fairytale.
Undivided effort and attention from him for six months to a year, Then, once our relationship reaches a place of true harmony THENNNN he can seek out & incorporate other women cause I’m definitely open to a poly relationship.
WE have to get right first though.
Last time I talked to him, I told him that not communicating with me and avoiding talking to me about real stuff while you go live in the honeymoon phase with a new girl is not for lack of a better word productive to the progress that we are trying to make in our relationship.
He definitely needs time to miss me. He’s taking me for granted.