I started Success Magick a few months ago.
I’m on 17 Abundance this week. I have been doing the workings every day as instructed.
Here are some observations and ideas:
As soon as I started glancing thru the book, I felt energy shifts.
I love the experience of this magick. It feels so good to do it, I feel so connected.
I notice that after I start a new ritual, I can remember how the topic of the current ritual was making itself known to me the PREVIOUS week. It’s like a lot of “ah ha now I get it it” moments.
Every time I open to a new square for the next ritual and gaze at it for the first time, I feel a connection, as if something is greeting me and reaching out.
This Magick is like nothing else.
I don’t want to sound trivial, but it’s as if life is a video game and I just leveled up.
I have a totally new ability/sense: I can now sense energy but I don’t understand what it means yet. I can feel waves of something. A negative example: A few months ago this homeless guy started screaming racial slurs at me and I was like “whatever dude” and after I walked by him I felt like something splattered against an invisible umbrella surrounding me, and even though I could sense it, it just dissipated. Like, WTF?
Now I get these energy feels all the time, along with the usual chills and hot spot sensations that I understand as Magick.
Friends have commented on how I’m changing, becoming more positive.
Things definitely seem easier overall. Like problems aren’t that much of an issue because I KNOW everything will be fine and work out for the best.
HOWEVER,
I was feeling so great that I decided to start up Brand’s Wealth Magick as well. I had started the first working but stopped when I wasn’t feeling it. I had been apprehensive about getting back into because of the upheavals that everyone mentions during the second working, and because of the potential darkness or depression that I have heard can be a side effect, but felt so confident that I knew I could handle it.
Well, I am doing fine I suppose, but at the same time I’m not.
I’m smack in the middle of the Omnipotence Transformation, and I am having horrible sadness, actually crying every day. I feel like I’m in mourning.
I was prepared for “disruption” that everyone mentions. Right now, the world is insane anyway so it feels like a good time to suck it up and change for the better. But I’ve had no major changes In my life except for feeling like I’m lost and in mourning.
My tarot cards all read the same thing, again and again (as well as big change cards like the tower, death, star, moon, sun, strength and the chariot ): the negative experiences of the past are coloring the present and I must learn to leave those experiences behind and not let the past determine the present and future. Things will be great if I can do this.
But I’m lost and confused about how to do this!
Strangely, I am confident that I’ll come out the other side of this in really great shape, but now I am miserable, and trying not to do stupid things to mess up my flow.
I’m in quarantine (as much as possible … I have to eat) so I also think I’m losing it a bit and I can’t discount that! I hugged a friend 3 weeks ago when we found out a mutual friend died and since I live alone that was the first and only physical human contact I have had since the beginning of March. I feel so sad and really alone.
But every time I do a Success Magick ritual, I feel so … right. I really appreciate this experience and this Magick.
That’s one thing that’s happening for sure: I am grateful, seriously grateful that I have the chance to do all this.
13 days left of the Omnipotence Transformation. I can hold out but I really don’t like feeling so unmoored.
Today I finish 17 of Success Magick.
I am wondering if I should start including singing the keys? I read them in translation and was fascinated, it felt like really embracing my natural authority in a way I hadn’t thought of before. I could feel a pull.
I’d appreciate any ideas, encouragement or input on all of this!