Strange thing I experience in my sleep state

[Mulberry]

@wildweaselmw

a half-asleep state as if I was both asleep and not asleep

This is a well used state for lucid work and trance work. You’re basically in an altered state of consciousness… E.A. calls this the Theta Gamma State (TGS) in reference to the brainwave patterns that happen in this state. The trick is keeping it here an not falling asleep.

I put up a post with pictures about this here:

Maulbeere's Ramblings and Shiny Things

Follow up: I realised there’s a very nice chart shared in one of Michael Raduga’s video classes on astral travel/lucid dreaming/tgs/journeying. He described the “direct” method of getting into a journey, that state between waking and sleeping, which is simply when you do this before sleeping at night. He calls it “the Phase”. [2022_02_23_20_04_32_Leave_Your_Body_in_3_Days_3_3_A_Lucid_Dreaming_OBE_Lesson_by_Michael_Raduga_] You can see it, you get deeper and deeper into trance, the trick is …

@wildweaselmw

and at these moments I felt something like a weight on me

This is “sleep paralysis”, also called a “hag attack”. Also very common, especially with people trying to use TGS for astral development and magickal purposes.

I would say your experiment was successful, and now you can take it further. Next time don’t worry about the feelings: Keep your goals for the session firmly in mind and work on those. In this case you wanted to communicate with Marchosias, so it would have been a good time to menially call out to him, sat “Marchosias come!” three times and watch for changes in the ambient energy around you or any impressions that spontaneously pop into your mind indicating contact.

This is a form of telepathic communication, made possible because of your respective state… From there you can talk to him, ask questions, remember the impressions that come to you in response.