So I was looking for some help.
Im family life is really stressful, me and my brother do all the chores for the house besides taking care of our little sister, and my parents laundry, but everything else me and him do.
I spend 2-4 hours a day taking care of my dog.
Me and my brother are burnt out we are constantly told we are lazy and that we do not do enough and then my parents make threats about taking away our phones or the internet. They’ve also threatened to make us share a room again. My brother is 17 and a senior in highschool, and I am 21.
Im diagnosed Bi-polar my spiritual awakening happened my senior year of highschool, during that time I went through a break up of 4 years, my mom had cancer, and I was going to the hospital for my episodes, the past few years I’ve had consistent set back financially, spiritually, and emotionally.
I am deathly afraid of being homeless again, or having a really bad manic episode.
Ive registered with the department of rehabilitation, since bi-polar is considered a disability.
I really struggle to work, I currently have a part time job about 8 hours a week or $115. Its manageable for my mental health and I dont hate my job. But its not enough hours or enough money.
The DOR will pay for me to go back to school, but Im not a traditional school persona and I dont want to get the vaccine. But community colleges offer yoga certification programs, this is what I plan to do, it’ll pay better than minimum wage jobs and I will get paid for teaching people spirituality.
Then I can go into music and business once I have a decent amount of money and am moved out and all.
I’ve already began to do magick, I’ve done wealth magick twice now and am currently doing success magick by damon brand. Ive also worked with the angels of alchemy book and demons of magick. As well as 72 sigils of power and 111 sigils of transformation.
I did a ritual from 111 sigils for brigning peace to a home so I hope that works. Ive also done work with the 72 sigils for love, power, and various other problems, recently I have been doing A LOT of magick to help my reality. I feel powerless in the mundane, I am a serf to my household and a wage slave at work.
The only escape I really have is walking my dog and smoking weed, I listen to music and the weed really helps my anxiety, my tolerance is going up though and weed also costs money, but I really enjoy it as a medicine.
I also did a meta-link with Belial and Asmodeus.
Im currently taking a break from demonic magick and focusing on other magick.
If you have any angelic rituals or general rituals you reccommend that could help me Id love to try them out, I dont use wands, daggers, or herbs and spices, usually just a book and my mind. So please post magick that is simple and doesnt require tools or resources.
Life has been consistently tough ever since I turned 18, my 21st birthday is coming up and I feel so bbehind, I have about $1k to my name and 15k of cc debt. I just want to help the situation for my family and figure out a way to manage my mental health and spirituality so that I can get my yoga certification and get a better paying job and eventually move out.