Two points need some additional elaboration about my dream this morning.
Firstly, the hallway and by extension the home I was in was one I grew up in. There’s some additional significance to that, but I won’t get into it as it’s better saved for a proper “pathworking journal” methinks…
I note it all the same so I can return to this for reference.
The second point, is that before I saw the group of shadows silhouettes, within the flashing fog/mist there was a moment that the dark figure seemed to have a hat on during one particularly bright flash in the fog.
Could that have been the Hat-man? (I’m not sure but in the dream I thought so…)
This morning since I was up early, and wanting to correct my lack of energy work (despite being told not to) I set about practicing some Qigong.
I only did about twenty minutes, as there was a continual prodding to finish early and not do too much.
I seem to get the feeling that if I do a lot of energy work right now I may end up “blowing a circuit”.
Has my energy body changed in some way I’m not consciously aware of that I need to be careful with?..
At lunch time I went to subway.
New employees…
Not the brightest crayons in the box either. It was quite pitiful seeing how my sandwhich got assembled and by the time it was finished, I was downright perturbed a bit.
When I sat down to eat, not only was it wrapped badly but it wasn’t cut in half and the vegetables wee all falling out.
I was irate but just tore the sandwhich in half and made the best of it.
Tbh, I was in a bad mood because of this and while lost in some mental revelry I was suddenly confronted by a deep voice:
"Hahaha, Why do you Rage?"
Me: hold on. What? You just gonna jump in my thoughts? Sigh
I dunno. At the end of it, I didn’t feel like making a scene, and it ends up being a bit of an impotent rage at best.
Can we not do this right now?
I then went about my day and the rage subsided and I let the whole thing go.
Though I couldn’t help but wonder if this was part of my current stuff. Hmmmm
Here, I need to backtrack a bit:
Returning to Mar 9 '21 Tues…
On a whim, I decided to grab the Shadownomicon and put it in my pack to carry around with me.
Upon grabbing it, I had a flashback…
See, last year I was prompted to start carrying the book in my pack for awhile.
One day I was pulled to go to a quiet place, pull the book out and turn to page 97, the entry on the black mote…
Simultaneously with this flashback I remembered this:
I must go into some greater depth about this…
Off and on I was getting anxious due to the blackouts for some reason.
I started trying to pinpoint why this might be.
When I was around fifteen my family lived in a trailer.
It was the bush years, and the economy was bad. Dad wasn’t in the picture and money was tight.
At one point, we went without electricity for a good stretch .
This trailer (and the trailer park itself more than likely) had some bogeys…
And being stuck in the dark at night (flashlights not withstanding) wasn’t fun, on top of stress, depression, and other things.
In particular, it was when the family lived here that I would spend many nights racked with fear at an invisible presence that would stand just outside my door to my bedroom.
No matter how much I told myself there wasn’t anything there, I couldn’t convince my body otherwise.
I would cover myself in the sheets and try to remain as motionless as possible, trying to slow and still my breath paralyzed with fear and at times truly breathing quickly.
All the while I would feel presence so strongly that it seemed to be just on the other side of the sheet.
Many nights I couldn’t remember how I fell asleep, as I’d probably just lapsed into terrified exhaustion.
Other times I would feel the oppressive presence lift, convince myself that my mind was getting away from me, and go to bed after.
All this, is classic of the behavior or experiences of the shadow people, and the man with the hat…
Though I never “saw” anything…
(There was also plenty of other things but I won’t get into them here)
I was thinking of all that briefly in the hour or so before I saw this black orb fly by part of the room.
The first time it flew up at a 45° angle veered around in a sharp U turn and shot away the direction it came but ending further up then it started.
It was about the size of say, just smaller than a kids soccer ball.
I wanted to write this off the first time as floaters on my eye or something, but moments later it shot by again.
I kid you not, it looked just like what you might see on Ghost Adventures and their most compelling orb captures.
Blew. My. Mind.
It was a black orb which I’ve never really heard of so at the time I suspected that this could’ve been related to the shadows…
And, so…we return to my fhashback of the mote entry of the Shadownomicon.
Now let’s segueway into the following:
Returning to this Monday (Mar 8 '21),
I happened to be in the town where my family had lived in this trailer park.
On a whim, and with the shadows on my mind I decided to cruise by and check the place out …
It’s now seemingly abandoned, with naught but three boarded up condemned trailers, and one oddball one at the front that seems occupied, but otherwise a bunch of empty plots.
It was never a very good place to begin with, had a lot of wierdos, derelict trailers, and many nights there was just a vibe to the place that didn’t feel good or right.
The police would frequently patrol the second half of it too…
Now it’s kind of a big nothing.
Also, considering the internal rollercoaster I experienced Monday morning (I was all over the place, at one point I was anxious, at another point I felt like I wanted to give up, give up on anything and everything, at another point I felt like I was on the verge of being depressed), and the looks I was getting from co-workers only for everything to be fine later and the rest of the week (for the most part) I don’t have much doubt that it’s confirmation of contact with at the very least Legion.
Sunday, I’d been listening to the newly released legion mantra/enn with the book out after all…
And on that point I have to revisit this:
At some point a female voice came at me in a tone like an overbearing somewhat controlling woman.
“That is quite enough Of THAT! Stop this Nonsense!”
And then an annoyed silence when I basically said, “DENIED”.
I didn’t really think about it too much other than thinking that the tone I was hearing was kinda off (not something I’ve dealt with before)
Was it actually The Shadow Woman?..
I dunno.
Just some minutes ago I was prompted to remove the Shadownomicon from my pack.
Soon as I took it out, all kinds of tingles…
I’ll add one other thing since it just occurred to me.
Last year in July I believe.
I was going to watch the Hatman documentary.
But when I was going to put it on…
(Don’t watch the that)
Wtf? Why?
(Something will come…)
What…no way
I ended up getting so unnerved that I passed.
The next day I said, “fuck it I’m just psyching myself out…”
I put it on…
With the first 10 mins or so, something showed up.
The room had this odd tingly energy about it and there was definitely a presence permeating the entire apartment. It was a “pokey” energy and I could see a red sort of sparse static in the air (in my mind’s eye).
Despite this unnerving development I watched the entirety of the documentary.
The presence remained the rest of the night, and I went to sleep just a bit apprehensive but just kind of said “well shit, I didn’t expect that. I’m going to bed, I hope you’ve gone off somewhere else by morning…”
By morning everything was back to normal…
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