Missed a day…
Yesterday I had no dream recall.
Before I got to work, I happened to check my trip meter at a stop light (I use it to guage my mileage every tank of gas)…111.1 miles. Nice
I was filling in for another guy who was out on vacation. His stuff involves weighing and measuring. 666 came up a couple of times.
Yesterday’s magic repeating numbers seemed to be 555, and 888.
I must be doing something right. Hahaha
At this point, following my intuition, I feel that I’m done with the mantra practice I was doing with chinnamasta and Ganesh. Actually I was done a few days ago, but chose to slog it out a bit further. Unless I’m compelled otherwise, I’m dropping it for now.
My Shri yantra I have on hand should be rather energized I imagine from the twenty plus days of mantra work, and the tealights I’ve burned over it during the practice. (Really I feel I could’ve done better, but I didn’t do too bad I suppose.)
जै छिन्नमस्ता । जै गणेश ।
I was compelled to take a cleansing bath again (salt). Took a really long soak.
Afterward, it seemed I needed to do a really good banishing. So I banished, and then did some other things.
I don’t know what it is that seems to be fucking with me, but I’ll need to be more diligent about my shielding and whatnot. A good reason to practice better discipline. Lol
Last night around 12? I performed a self love rite with Astarte. Went really well. What a lovely, wonderful goddess!
Edit:
Feels like I should note the following since I thought about it…
During the rite, I got a lot of activation in the energetic gates of my feet, sacral and surrounding chakras (mostly the sacral), and the front of my crown. Afterward, I felt a sort of “magnetic” or energetic pressure in my third eye (I don’t know if anointing my third eye with my own blood played a part in this or not). Also, I had been compelled/told to anoint my temples with Slut Water™ (as opposed to directly on the third eye, or what I usually do which is put it on my crown and work it into my hair). Anointing the temples might merit some experimentation. When all was said and done and the rite concluded, I dealt some vague nausea but I had been fasting since lunch time, and finished at 12am or after last night.
End edit.
This was probably the first step in some shadow work I’m needing to do. Despite all the work I’ve already done, it seems there’s a few points where I’m not progressing, or have failed to go further. I don’t like feeling stuck.
I had used cuniform for Ishtar, and the word “love” around her sigil, as well as the number fifteen (one of her epithets is “the fifteen”).
I had meant to do some other things but felt a bit tired and drained, so I ate and grounded myself with some tv before going to bed.
Jan 30th '21 Saturday:
I dreamt a lot of wierd shit.
There was a very large rat, eating a large but much smaller mouse alive. Starting with the feet and legs, before ripping skin if it face or something.
I was hanging out with some girl. We’re we romantically involved?
A baby cow and a dog. She seemed really fixated on the baby cow.
We started to have sex a few different times, but she seemed to have a lot of hangups so it didn’t really go anywhere. Trust issues? Self esteem?
There was a lot of sexual stuff in my dreams, probably influenced by the self love rite I did with Astarte.
I feel like there’s something else missing. Perhaps I’ll remember later…