When a wasp gets in most peoples face, they tend to swat…having been stung once.
Wasps sting for two reasons…fear and also there are asshole wasps.
I gently capture them in a container and release them.
We cannot capture stinging people, but we can find ways to avoid getting stung by putting a little distance there. That doesnt mean you have to avoid going into areas they are…but maybe take care to limit how many you subject yourself to in a single setting. You dont have to invite them in.
If you react warmly and kindly most often, you may find the wasp and typical person are disarmed.
I think I’ll have it laminated, possibly turn it into a Talisman of some sort. Already have a Talisman of Belial, but I need to make it to where it’s actually utilizing his sigil, because the one that I have right now is on Lucifer sigil, and I still need to destroy that one.
I get this totally. I find great comfort and rewards in fostering sick Dogs in my spare time and helping out a Dog homeless shelter. I have no idea if you like animals, but they have Cats and Dogs looking for anyone to help them in any way who have also been abused and let down by people.
I remain socially isolated by my own choice but I currently have a Dog that was starved to skin and bones leaving me to a new home now he is 25lbs heavier and well. It is just an ideas?
I am so used to doing something everyday. From a simple communication, to a channeling, or even a possession. Typically, I would sit in my astral temple, or make improvements to it. I’ve left it in the charge of [REDACTED].
I keep on having to stop myself from doing something magickal in nature, I almost made a Witches Rope tonight from a long red cord I found. Divination, spirit communication, even deep meditation, are all off limits until this is done. The only “magick” I have done is simple grounding and “detuning” in order to make it easier to deal with people when shopping.
Personally, I do feel stronger, not having to use vampirism or energy siphoning to replenish my energy. Using my own power and not using others has shown me just how dependent I was getting on it.
Honestly, I am feeling much better, and this detox has really shed light on some things that I have needed to work on. But I will not falter or fail, I will continue this detox.
I don’t like to be among people as well, honestly most of them are just shallow shells and nothing more. But I do accept there are some exceptions. It is my choice if I want to be around them or not and when. That, of course, is not appreciated by most (I suppose they feel used) so my friends are very few. Not that I care what the majority has to say, so I make my own space in this world and I learned to co-exist. For me. Not for them.
You know…not everything we see is a wasp. Sometimes between the wasps there are some honey bees and we just shove them all away because we’re not capable to regognize them. Either because we don’t know the differences, or because we panic in fear that we will be stung.
You don’t have to go out there right now and make 10 friends, but go for hiking, try painting something, sculpture, anything that might seem even the slightest interesting. And who knows, maybe at the end you’ll get a new hobby that relaxes you to add in your daily life.
He probably was merely expressing the same ideas that I used to have. I’m slowly working on getting better at dealing with people, but before that, it was all rage and destruction.
If you’ve read the book of Azazel, there is one passage in there where EA is talking about how he was Desiring to punish the whole of humanity for the wrongs of only a few of them. That’s how I used to feel, and how purple currently feels.
We all are going through our own personal journey of evolution, of self-discovery, and if there’s a few planets that must be destroyed, so be it.
I wonder if I should look at the Divine Realm? I have some serious trust issues when it comes to Angels, however, I can’t let that Slow Me Down.
I have a lot to think about, I think I’m going to go write down a list of things that I want to do in the future, I really need to get this thing all squared away. I can’t just Bounce from being to being willy-nilly.
Ive worked with angels a little bit, granted i have trust issue toward them as well but its mainly from confirmation bias of other magickions saying i shouldnt work with them. Ive work with Azadriel a little bit and have a copy of Greater Angels of Magick that i havent even worked with, but im getting there, soon.
I think you should do it, they mostly have a really nice energy.
Maybe start with some of the Angels from Kingdoms of Flame? Their energy is fiery, and less Celestial, than the Archangels, so they might be good to approach as a way to slowly get to know the angelic.
Forgive me if this has already been brought up somewhere in this conversation or elsewhere, but as far as a way to spend your time, or a hobby…
Have you considered writing? A book written by someone with as much experience as you have would be a great asset to both newcomers and adepts, and it would let you immerse yourself in the magic without actually performing any. It would act as an official journal for you to look back on years from now, and it could well end up bringing fame and financial success your way… It seems the natural progression to share your knowledge and become a teacher once you’ve attained such a high level of mastery… That’s what EA did, right?
Who knows, maybe we’ll all end up on the “Become a Living Siconyte” forum someday
I love it whenever the figures out of the corner of your eye are darting around trying to stay directly out of your line of sight. It’s a lot of fun, because I remember that when I was younger, the shit would terrify me, now I just chuckle.
Whenever I went out there, all I intended on doing was a small thank you to a few spirits. It turned into a full-on ritual in which I called upon some of the right-hand beings that I used to work with, thank them, and then I did a thank you oh, nice to meet you with some of the solar spirits.
I also took a little trip out to where I used to live,i rang my singing bowl a number of times in order to cleanse my bad memories of that place. Very cathartic. Although, I would have enjoyed being able to have a good time. But there simply too many bad memories there.
