Greetings.
What a union of synchronicities!
I also happened to be involved with runes at one time.
I even designed a modified Middle Pillar ritual for this purpose and am happy to make it available here. Proceed as you see fit.
Since I’ve been performing Middle Pillar rituals for about 15 years, I’d be happy to share some insights. These days, I perform my own daimonic Middle Pillar rituals. I’ve been practicing Dark Middle Pillar rituals for about four years.
Yes, at the beginning, the energy can be very strong, or rather, unfamiliar. This also depends on the invoked forces you’re calling upon, your constitution, and what spiritual practices you’ve already undertaken.
Additionally, you can choose different paths of Sephiroth or Qliphoth if you wish. (Path of the Flaming Sword…)
If you have trouble keeping track of the number 10 (I personally always use the number 11 for the Sephirah/Qlipha) when counting the mantras, you can use mudras to avoid counting mentally.
I use the Hebrew “Priestly Blessing Hands” (Live long and prosper :-P). Simply fold a finger after each mantra, and then, for number 11, close the circuit. Just your hands or fingers together.
I would also suggest that you do some kind of spiritual cleansing or banishing beforehand. If the ritual was too much, you can do one afterward as well. You can also simply do some exercise to release the energy, or some other kind of work, even giving massages, for example.
I once read somewhere that after recharging, i.e., after the M.P., you start to glow like a Christmas tree, spiritually speaking.
And if you want to sleep, you shouldn’t do this in the evening.
This energizing ritual is truly very versatile; it can also be used after invocation to anchor various forces, or you can spiritually perceive what inspiration you receive in your sphere of attention.
In alchemical terms, a prior purification through, for example, banishment, fumigation, a salt bath, or whatever you prefer, would be the Solve, and the Middle Pillar would be the Coagula. Solve et Coagula.
Listening to your gut feeling, your intuition, is a good suggestion.
Modified Runic MP, with runic interpretations for trans Sephira/Qlipha. (AIN/BOHU, AIN SOPH/CHOSHECH, AIN/TOHU VA BOHU, …)
Don’t rush!
Greetings again.
(I hope we can help you a little!)
Ave Samaal!