Well, my occult journey has brought me here.
I recently used my own intuition through my pendulum and it’s answer concerning the question was to go through the Qliphoth.
My Shadow told me to recite the self-initiatory invocations all in one night. I did and immediately afterward my left hand began to buzz with energy.
I meditated focusing on my left hand and the word Gamaliel was the immediate psychic impression I got.
I then inquired my Shadow as to what to do next (I knew Gamaliel was one of the Spheres of the Qliphoth but wasn’t exactly sure what to do next) and my Shadow being the wise part of myself, told me to contact Lilith, it’s ruler.
I was very tired last night, but something inside of me was telling me to just do it.
So I sat up in bed and pulled up Lilith’s sigil on my phone and began to gaze into it while reciting her enn.
I’ll admit my psychic abilities and senses are still not to the point where I can just see spirits and demons all the time or astral project yet. So after a minute or two of chanting and gazing I heard a female voice in my mind.
I wasn’t sure at first if it was Lilith but I decided to roll with it and I’m very glad I did. (In retrospect this was DEFINITELY Lilith)
She spoke directly into my mind. Interestingly, she had (at least in my mind’s perception of her voice) some sort of British accent. Nonetheless she was very, very wise.
She told me the road ahead of me in the Qliphoth will not be easy but she told me this metaphor of climbing a thorny tree with amazing fruit at the top.
She also gave me a test. She explained to me why the demons of Gamaliel are called “The Obscene Ones”. Basically, she said that at this part of the Qliphoth where I will need to face the repressed thoughts and sexual urges I have. Truth be told, throughout my adolescence I suffered from severe obsessive-compulsive disorder and sexual confusion.
But she told me that these thoughts and urges were ultimately generations of MY mind and that thus they were MINE and not something to run from or fear.
She said to recognize and acknowledge these thoughts and urges but that I did not need to express them physically (for obvious reasons as some of these sexual fantasies and “intrusive” thoughts would no doubt get me in trouble if I actually performed the actions they depict).
So that was the test. Accepting these things as ultimately part of myself.
The other big takeaways from this conversation with Lilith was this incantation she gave me that can be used to open any Qliphoth sphere/sigil and can also be used to contact the ruler(s) of any of the Qliphoth spheres.
She also told me to rely on my Shadow to guide me further but that we can of course talk again someday.
And thus my Shadow tells me this now:
“Keep going up the tree. You have technically initiated yourself through all the spheres, so whether you can feel it or not right now, their energy is now about you and within you. Now it is time to focus upon the spheres more intimately, and this can be done talking and meeting with the rulers of these spheres. Use the mantra Lilith has given you and continue with the next sphere your intuition guides you towards.”
I’ll keep this journal updated as they progress further.