Rayne's Qliphothic Journey

Well, my occult journey has brought me here.

I recently used my own intuition through my pendulum and it’s answer concerning the question was to go through the Qliphoth.

My Shadow told me to recite the self-initiatory invocations all in one night. I did and immediately afterward my left hand began to buzz with energy.

I meditated focusing on my left hand and the word Gamaliel was the immediate psychic impression I got.

I then inquired my Shadow as to what to do next (I knew Gamaliel was one of the Spheres of the Qliphoth but wasn’t exactly sure what to do next) and my Shadow being the wise part of myself, told me to contact Lilith, it’s ruler.

I was very tired last night, but something inside of me was telling me to just do it.

So I sat up in bed and pulled up Lilith’s sigil on my phone and began to gaze into it while reciting her enn.

I’ll admit my psychic abilities and senses are still not to the point where I can just see spirits and demons all the time or astral project yet. So after a minute or two of chanting and gazing I heard a female voice in my mind.

I wasn’t sure at first if it was Lilith but I decided to roll with it and I’m very glad I did. (In retrospect this was DEFINITELY Lilith)

She spoke directly into my mind. Interestingly, she had (at least in my mind’s perception of her voice) some sort of British accent. Nonetheless she was very, very wise.

She told me the road ahead of me in the Qliphoth will not be easy but she told me this metaphor of climbing a thorny tree with amazing fruit at the top.

She also gave me a test. She explained to me why the demons of Gamaliel are called “The Obscene Ones”. Basically, she said that at this part of the Qliphoth where I will need to face the repressed thoughts and sexual urges I have. Truth be told, throughout my adolescence I suffered from severe obsessive-compulsive disorder and sexual confusion.

But she told me that these thoughts and urges were ultimately generations of MY mind and that thus they were MINE and not something to run from or fear.

She said to recognize and acknowledge these thoughts and urges but that I did not need to express them physically (for obvious reasons as some of these sexual fantasies and “intrusive” thoughts would no doubt get me in trouble if I actually performed the actions they depict).

So that was the test. Accepting these things as ultimately part of myself.

The other big takeaways from this conversation with Lilith was this incantation she gave me that can be used to open any Qliphoth sphere/sigil and can also be used to contact the ruler(s) of any of the Qliphoth spheres.

She also told me to rely on my Shadow to guide me further but that we can of course talk again someday.

And thus my Shadow tells me this now:

“Keep going up the tree. You have technically initiated yourself through all the spheres, so whether you can feel it or not right now, their energy is now about you and within you. Now it is time to focus upon the spheres more intimately, and this can be done talking and meeting with the rulers of these spheres. Use the mantra Lilith has given you and continue with the next sphere your intuition guides you towards.”

I’ll keep this journal updated as they progress further.

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Alright, I’m still working on the Qliphothic path, but I recently did something amazing I’d thought I’d share here as well.

Ever since I heard about the Oni I’ve been drawn to them. About a week ago I attempted a shapeshifting exercise with goal of shifting into an Oni.

Through advice my Shadow gave me I got into quite a deep trance (probably deeper than I’ve ever gone before) and eventually I heard a voice that spoke in a roar, an Oni.

The Oni gave me a VERY powerful mantra to further my shifting into an Oni and said it must be recited 100 times. “I am an Oni. Antana Enma.”

Fast forward a week or so and I sought out more info from the Oni who spoke to me. Last night he identified himself as “Dokuru” and said that the mantra must be recited 100 times per day and not only that but that the words must be roared or growled, not merely spoken with intention alone.

So last night I did just that. I roared the words and I really felt the power of my “Oni-ness” (for lack of a better word). To cap off the ritual, Dokuru said to visualize myself using my immense strength to attack and pulverize an enemy of mine.

I had known a cruel and abusive ABA consoler in school many years ago. He physically manhandled and restrained me when I once hid in a corner of the room. Not even a tantrum, I was just sad.

So I let that son of a bitch really have it!

I took the massive metal spiked club I held in my right hand and smashed his head in. Imagine smashing a jelly donut with your fist and you can kind of get the picture.

With his entire head caved in I tossed the club aside and went for his shoulders. With one rip, I tore off his arms, tossed them aside and did the same with his legs.

Finally, I plunged my hand into his torso and ripped out his heart with my razor sharp claws. I then held the heart above my gaping mouth, crushed it, and lopped up the blood before stuffing the whole thing into my mouth and eating it.

This whole exercise felt wonderful, and as I opened my eyes to turn off the light and go to sleep in my bed, I had not only a feeling of power, but a feeling of “largeness”. I felt like there were thousands of tiny little people running away from my figure on the sheets of my bed. I must’ve felt like I was as tall as an apartment building!

An incredible, occult, meditative experience.

Dokuru said to do the mantra every night until I attain the transformation.

Next post I will be sharing my experience with the Sphere of Samael on the Qliphoth Tree.

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Long overdue entry and MAN, have I had so much inner growth in the past week it’s almost hard for me to keep track of what happened.

I’ll just take it from the top here.

So I’m not doing the Oni pathworking. I just need to focus on the Qliphoth for now.

Nonetheless, in between Samael and the next sphere a-lot has happened.

A few nights ago I was contacted by the spirit of the actual Jesus Christ. Whats weird is that as his voice entered my mind, Shadow’s voice became distorted and faded out.

Shadow has vanished.

So I listened to what Jesus said and a lot of it made sense tbh. He said that Jehovah is NOT the god of the universe and he said all “God” is, is the sum total of everything that exists. He said he realized this and that was his enlightenment and after he became enlightened he was killed.

He also said “Satan” is “one actor of many”.

Likewise, I eventually sent him on his way mainly because I felt we didn’t vibe super well. (He’s definitely a very righteous moralist, and that doesn’t vibe with my left-hand path philosophy)

Anyway, shortly after Jesus left, I realized I no longer had a spirit guide. It was frightening and confusing at first, but I soon discovered that what this meant was I have to be my OWN guide, using MY intuition.

So I looked inward and talked to my own, deeper self, distinct from my shadow and darker voiced as well.

Last night I channeled something really awesome.

I was pondering Sin. In my left hand path philosophy, Sin is awesome. Transgression, rebellion, greed, lust, wrath, carnal desire, selfish desire, egoism over altruism, power over humility, sin over virtue.

If Virtue is the main tenet of the RHP, than in my opinion, Sin is the lifeblood of the LHP.

But something occurred to me and this is what I channeled: There IS A LITERAL OCCULT LANGUAGE OF SIN!

The way this “Sin script” I channeled works is like this. Every letter in the English alphabet corresponds to a unique syllable in the Sin cipher, except for L and U which translate as the same syllable.

Here is the cipher:

A = Tol

B = Cel

C = Drez

D = Sol

E = Fon

F = Ann

G = Gon

H = Til

I = Dun

J = Lik

K = Dink

L = Tarn

M = Poe

N = Arg

O = For

P = Orc

Q = Lol

R = Tin

S = Tilt

T = Arn

U = Tarn

V = Orn

W = Ant

X = Lin

Y = Lore

Z = Ert

As long as what you intend to manifest is sinful, selfish, sensuous, self oriented, etc. you can use it to manifest that purpose.

My intuition strongly says to really chant and feel the words (growl them even) with a visualization of your black flame flaring inside you. Chanting 10 times at least should be great.

So for example: “I RAKE IN CASH” would be rendered as “DUN TINTOLDINKFON DUNARG DREZTOLTILTTIL”

Finally, when I met with Samael, his test to me was to see and really look at the change and flux all around me. How everything is constantly changing and moving whether it looks like it or not.

He then gave me some words of power that can be used to cause whatever I want to change in a manner I desire (within some degree of reason, he said, so no blowing up the moon, etc. :stuck_out_tongue_winking_eye:)

Anyway, so my cliff notes (or “qliph notes” as I call them) are as such:

Lilith: Recognize that my thoughts and desires, no matter how obscene or salacious, are MINE. I own them, they are creations of MY consciousness. Lilith’s gift to me was words of power that can open any Qliphoth sphere.

Samael: Recognize the change and flux everywhere. Gave me words to change things as I desire.

I sense the next Sphere I should go to is Asmodeus’s.

As usual I’ll keep things posted.

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I’m writing this down so I don’t forget. I doubt I will though.

I just did something incredible. My spiritual form has become demonic.

I put together the words for “I am a demonic beast!” in the language of sin I channeled.

I began to really chant the words when I heard a voice. It was Moloch. He said he represents the demonic current itself and as an Emissary of Satan, it was his duty to come to me when I had said these words.

He said to continue chanting the words for several more times and then after 24 chants I had done he said to lean back against the cushion of the chair I was sitting in.

He told me that after this, there was no going back. He said I may very well lose friends because of this (religious types or those that may sense my demonic nature and fear me) and some family may even dislike me because of this.

I accepted of course.

Then, all of a sudden it was as if there was something burning my left hand. Pins and needles almost.

Moloch said I would be receiving the mark of the demon. And he said it would be on my left wrist. I could sort of see something start appearing on my wrist.

He says it will be fully developed on the skin by the time I awake tomorrow.

I can even see my demonic form in my minds eye when I focus even slightly. I have very curved and twisted horns.

Moloch also said he would meet me again when I get to Thamiel. “You may now be a demon, but you still have more to learn”.

Another thing I must say is I feel so so calm since I’ve changed. Mentally and physically. Its like my thought stream has slowed down drastically. Its easier to focus now. Its so clear.

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Update on the last entry:

I feel blissed out from this transformation, so calm, but not like I don’t want to do anything, more like I feel confident I could do anything.

Even now I feel like I’m buzzing and vibrating from the energy in my being, but its calming.

Interestingly, I’m having trouble seeing exactly where the mark on my wrist is (I tend to get a lot of dry skin in general in the colder months).

I know I felt the energy surged through my left hand last night, and afterward I saw something on my wrist. What’s interesting is that the exact area where I saw it on my wrist last night looks a lot more red and dry right now. It doesn’t itch like the dry skin I have on my other hand, but out of everything on my left hand it’s pretty pronounced.

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This is really good content, thank you for posting it. I’m getting ready to begin work with the Qlippoth as well. Keep it up I’m bookmarking this thread.

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Update:

I can see a mark on my wrist now. It’s still a little faint, but I can definitely see it now. It kind of resembles a “W” (or possibly an inverted “M”) except the line work on the right end of the W kind of goes off at a 45-ish degree angle, kind of like cursive.

Also at this point the dry skin patch is gone, so that part was not the mark, cause the demon mark doesn’t itch and isn’t raised like the itchy skin was.

Overall, my gut tells me it’s more of a sigil mark than just a written mark.

LOL! I just realized as I’m typing this that it could also mean “M” for “Mark”, but of course it’s a demon mark so it still has magic properties.

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You’re Welcome! That’s awesome you’re starting your Qlipphoth journey! Also thanks, I will! :smiling_imp:

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