For some personal reasons, this is my ultimate goal. I want edit my higher self, and some other selves that I don’t quite fond of. This is surely against my higher will, and that’s a reason I want to do it, seriously. From my research, the term “higher self” has multiple definitions. Some see it as the higher consciousness that contains knowledge, some see it as a higher aspect of one’s soul, some see it as the future self that one can become, etc. No matter what it truly is, I want to edit/alter it. Having a higher commander that dictated my life path, designed my life lessons, and chose what I should become, is irritating. (It’s in fact more than irritating, but I don’t know that word…) The outcomes I want are…
-To re-design my god self, instead of accepting the self that my current self didn’t design. (So that I can proudly and willingly become it)
-To remove the restriction and limitation of “Who I am meant to be” and “What is meant to be mine”; to be able to be who I’m not meant to be, and what’s not meant to be mine.
-To remove past lives, the memories, and whatever that came with them. (This probably means losing some power, but it’s not permanently, right? I can still re-grow to be the person I want, with the power I can be proud of, in case I can design it.)
-To subdue the higher power that tries to push me back to the path they want.
-To be able to do the Soul Transmutation without the intervention from any other selves. (Thanks to Velenos. I’ve read multiple threads of him about the Soul Transmutation, and that’s also what I’m aiming to do.)
-To be able to make a contract with an entity, for my afterlife, (this is personal and I don’t want to go into details) without the intervention from any other selves.
-…I’m sure I forgot to list something
I don’t hate myself. In fact, I love myself, my current self, and because of that, I don’t want to become something that I didn’t design or couldn’t re-design. I hope you guys understand.
Some of you may say “your higher self is you”, I’m not arguing, and I appreciate the responses. Some of you may say that my higher self knows better than me, more intelligent than me. I’m not arguing at all, but still, it’s not the most intelligent being in the universe. The evidence is this thread. If it’s intelligent enough, I wouldn’t have had a plan to edit or act against it in the first place. Some of you may want to advise me not to do this, and I appreciate that, but after having 3 years researching about the related stuff, nothing can change my mind, and from what I learned, I think it’s possible to do. 1 month after I joined occult communities and multiple forums, this became the goal I always want to achieve. My apology for my stubbornness, but this decision is strong.
My true questions are, how can I achieve this goal? Who (demons/angels/deities) can be helpful?
Thank you for your responses! I appreciate all the insights. Many threads of this forum is really helpful, and I’m glad I found this forum.