Last night continued to be an amazing experience. I don’t think I could ever write enough words to truly capture and describe it. Some things happened simultaneously and crossed over each other. At one point, four entities were with me at once.
After I posted last night, I suppose my thoughts began to wander about Vassago’s message. I was thinking, “How can I tell if it’s a message from Vassago, a lesser entity masquerading, or just my own ego playing tricks on me and telling me what I want to hear?” I ran a few searches on the forum on that idea before I put my phone down and shut my eyes.
An entity appeared again in my mind’s eye. It was an old man in a long, ragged black robe. He shook me hard without touching me. My entire body shook. He boomed, “Do not doubt me. Do not doubt the truth.”
I said, “What entity is here with me now? Who holds me? Show me who you are.” In my thoughts, the name Vassago sprawled out in yellow glowing letters before him. As I heard him laugh and say, “You wish to see me?” the black robed figure pulled away his robe to reveal a laughing skeleton. He pointed a bony finger at me and said, “Never doubt what you have been given. Never doubt what I can do.”
I nodded my head and said, out loud, “I am sorry Vassago. I am truly sorry. I will never doubt you again, or the gift of truth you’ve given me. Forgive me.” The entity relaxed and released the forceful grip it had on me.
Steele’s energy was with me the whole time. I asked him if Vassago had left. He said no. I asked him if he (Steele) was with me all the time now. Steele said that a piece of him was with me all the time if he was working for/with me. I said, “Oh, are you working for me?” And he said, “I’m only waiting for you to send me where I am to go.”
I smiled, both psychically and in my mind. I told Steele that I enjoyed having him around and feeling his presence all the time lately. He seemed to enjoy that. I held out my hands in my mind’s eye and he put his in mine. I remember asking, “Steele, would you like to have sex with me?”
He smiled but then grew very grim and serious. “Please be careful how you make such offers. Asmodeus hears all things through me, and will act on any invitation as he so wishes.”
Steele further implied that the rougher, second time Vassago visited me was actually Asmodeus scaring me and not really Vassago. Which makes sense because it was much more like the aggressive energy of Asmodeus that I felt before.
Before I could finish telling Steele where I needed him to go, My mind was blinded by the brightest, most exquisite gold light beam I have ever seen before. It was warm and inviting, sensual and protecting, and my head fell back and looked straight up to it. Above my head was a wavering form, shaped like a vulva and as the light faded it changed into a robed woman, shaped sort of like the Our Lady of Guadalupe artwork but quite different.
As the light dissipated, she stretched out her hands to me and I knew instantly that she was Lilith. I took her hands and she came to me, knelt bedside me, enveloping me in her arms.
It was so surreal and amazing. Physically, I knew my body was lying on my sofa at my apartment. But I was also now somewhere else spiritually. I was naked in warm pool in a gorgeous grotto. The pool was filled to abundance with flowers, including water lilies and lotus. I could feel the breeze and hear the birds and insects. Lilith was lying along the edge of the pool, cradling my head to her breast. She was the most beautiful creature I have ever seen. Her skin was flawless and pale, almost like smooth stone. Her hair was white, and she was wearing a beautiful white gown. The gown was so white that it glowed softly and it seemed like the train trailed on forever all around her. It was like a vibrant, living painting.
“Are you Lilith?” I asked. She smiled and nodded and her smile was so wonderful and loving. Her presence was like the warmest and most tender embrace. She snapped her fingers and for a moment she was gone from me, across the grotto, and appeared as herself but with long, black hair and a skintight black dress, and long black horns. From her hair, wisps of black smoke trailed and split off, turning into blackbirds that flew away. And then, just like that, she was back to me again in white. I was beaming with joy. “I knew you were Lilith.”
She caressed my cheek and chin with porecelain hands with long, white nails. “Vassago speaks the truth. Do not worry. Your desires? I have made them come true.”
“You did these things for me? What do want in return?” My thoughts were on Asmodeus and his aggressive, pushy demands. Wanting sex as payment. And then I thought about how I worried and doubted so much leading up to this because I’ve never had my dreams answered before.
She smiled and kissed me on the lips, sensuously but firmly, while lovingly stroking my hair with one hand. “I did this for you because you’re one of mine. You’re one of my lovelies. Do you even realize how beautiful you are?”
I blushed and I could feel my eyes getting heavy and just a general relaxation spread through me. She continued, “I find those who are mine, and for those that are mine I will do all.”
“And you will not hurt him?” I asked.
She laughed, “Did you wish to hurt him? No. I have only done what you desired and nothing more. As Vassago said, it is already done.”
I lay there for a while, floating in her warm, loving embrace. Then I had another thought. “Lilith. Will you promise me one more thing?”
She answered, and she ran her fingers over my forehead and down my hair, “What, my lovely?”
“Please don’t send me any spiders. They’re terrifying.”
She laughed, “There’s nothing to be afraid of… but all right, I promise. Now, lovely, you rest…”
I grew drowsy and felt the connection fade out. I distinctly remember seeing four entities hovering over me as it left. Lilith, Asmodeous, Vassago and Steele. I lay there looking at my ceiling for a few minutes. Feeling amazing. Tingling. The next thing I knew, I was asleep… it was morning and my alarm was going off.
There is nothing else I can say except for I adore Lilith.