Sorry, but this post is def on the long side.
So, from time to time I am experiencing dreams involving the people from my past I am for various reasons no longer in contact with. Some of the most intense/ “more real than the life itself” kind of ones involve my ex-partner. I am trying to understand this phenomenon, or at least somehow structure it.
Part of the explanation could obviously point to my own subconscious, but there seems to be a supernatural side to it, maybe quite subtle, but still. Whenever she visits me something new always happens soon after in my life, sometimes these are relatively minor and mundane things on other occasions major changes, in most cases they are neutral, so I don’t think it’s happening out of any spite or ill-will on her part. For instance, I had a dream involving her some time ago and literally the next day I realized that it was an anniversary of an event important to both us, at least at some point in the past. Our ways parted many years ago and we aren’t on speaking terms: she believes that I hurt her, while I feel at least equally wronged by her. Importantly, I am holding no grudge against her whatsoever, nor do I wish her any ill, rather to the contrary. Realistically looking at things, there isn’t the slightest chance of us ever communicating ever again and I came to accept that (“it is what it is”).
So taking all that into the account I somehow feel puzzled why do I keep having those dreams. I am not frequently thinking about her, nor do I have any reason to believe that she does concern herself with my existence at all. I am wondering what may be at play here: my subconscious/ her subconscious, anything else? It’s not that I want to cut this connection or terminate it, but at least somehow comprehend it. As always I will be grateful for any ideas you may have. Peace.