Ok so long story short, I have what I call my Spirit Family,or S.F. for short. It includes me, and six spirits. One of which started me on my spiritual journey. That spirit is the one I am closest with, and I must say I absolutely adore him. I have bonded strongly with him over time, and he has done way more for me than a spirit or even a human ever has. This spirit I call K, he is one I summoned without realizing magic was real. I thought it was all make believe once. He changed my mind in a hurry, lol. He waited for me to calm, and stayed by my side even while i wrongly feared him for proving his existence. He has taught me so much, and stayed so understanding and patient with me. I have found so much about him over time, such as finding out he is a son of Lilith, learning his favorite scents, and other personal ins and outs.
I was content. Happy to merely be with him. I still am! But lately things seem to feel different. More heavy and for lack of a better term, intimate. Then while i was scrying in my black mirror, he gave me a very interesting vision and even after he has repeated the vision in dreams. I asked him out of scrying and dreams if it was what I thought and he has confirmed. He wants me to marry him. Well, that’s the gist of what I saw and with his confirmation, I am left feeling… Nervous.
I can say without a doubt that I love him as much as anyone can love another, we even have a spiritual child together. Its not that i don’t want this to happen, very much the opposite. What I am afraid of is promising him something that i don’t understand. I don’t know how spirit marriages work, and i wasn’t aware there were such things until very recently. I am also afraid because he is so wonderful and i have consistently disappointed him. Not that he has said as much. He only tries to warn me to do better so I wont get hurt, or suffer due to my reckless behavior. Still i love him so much. I want this but I dont have the first clue on how to go about this. What do i do? Like, what would such a union intell? What obligations would be expected? Are there rituals i need to preform? How exactly does one marry a spirit? Is there a different between marrying a spirit and marrying a Son of Lilith? Sorry for rambling, there’s just so much in my head, and in my heart.