Ok so background, I’ve been trying to continue invoking and otherwise connecting with Lucifer and I did a petition with him which had a positive outcome and was fulfilled a day before I did this, and was my first time working with him on something tangible, which I am really proud of.
My general method had been just sigil gazing and then chanting his enn, I follow instructions from a youtube video which I can link last night to try to be more intentional about invoking him. Normally after awhile I say something like “help me see, guide me, etc etc etc” but the specific line which was added last night was “manifest within me” and then I just go off of feeling so I was saying “come to me” and on my second or third repetition the candle popped and then dimmed, A LOT. It startled me so much and I could not calm down afterward, and therefore had to end it. I am wondering if anyone has any advice.
His sigil basically kept disappearing completely while I was gazing at it after. I think everything I’ve been able to temper about working with spirits reared it’s ugly head and I worried if it was even him I was contacting or something which could do harm which I didn’t have protection from and the whole mood changed.
Otherwise I’ve been having a bunch of spiders show up only in my room, saw one as I typed this, and it’s getting to be a lot. Also last night before this I did the LBRP and the middle pillar ritual but before that I just knew his candle really wanted to be lit and it burned a really bright white compared to the others I was using which appeared almost yellow-ish instead. I ended up putting it out for the banishing ritual because I wasn’t sure he’d appreciate me like almost banishing him? So then I relit it after.
So basically I know that I am getting somewhere but I am wondering if anyone has been able to remain a bit more level headed when something like this happens? How do you approach stuff like this? It was rather overwhelming and I know to advance I can’t shy away from that. Also, just to add this, if I am looking into his sigil and chanting his enn, is it fairly safe to assume I’m contacting him? I feel like based off posts I’ve read the answer is yes but want to double check.