So its been a long time ive posted something new so.
Welcome dear old guests and new ones therein!
Ife allways been since young age obsessed with my own sex to now. Never in a homosexual matter but in the matter of enhancing it.
When i was a boy of course one gets confronted with others boys your age and not your age. And well dicc measurements in some way or another where apart of it. And you guessed it, as a boy one has not usualy a snake between the legs if ya know what i mean… And i think the ridicule traumatized me. But instead of being ashamed foever ife looked for ways to bether it. Like 5 years tru until 15.
So i started my journey around 15 but really when has its practical beginings was 16 i looked and looked and researched like crazy nonstop daily. And ife found a good hint. Subliminals. So ive used subliminals around until now so 6 years.
For enhancement purposes.
But i was also addicted to masturbation really. I subcounciously knew it was wrong how much i did it and when i busted that ife lost something precious.
I couldnt lay a finger at the begining what it was but, it came out trough later studys as ones manly fluid and essence is the building stone of our masculinity and building stone for thinks we want to inwardly achieve spiritualy or materialy, mentaly. And if this gets lost trough ejaculating. One needs a bit longer or harder to regain this strenght or building block for your selfgrowth and thinks in general you want.
So but ife found out i am high sexual filled person my sexual energys goes daily nonstop out of the roof and ife i dont do something with it do something sexual. As a kid i and even now i am a creative genius artist 69/240/360 (Unironicly Dabing-i know its old lol)
A way that i express it.
But the hornyness o god where do i begin…
Never stops so watchugona do?
And if you dont do something its only gets worse the horny level. And my dicc thank myself and my gods is now nonchalant pretty big. And pretty sensitive, the sensitivity is often the reason for busin.
So i started to train my dicc trough kegels reverse kegels. Jelqing, pumping, dicc rings.
In Kombinationen of sigil magic for growth and enhancement in general. And self hypnosis and reafirmations.writing that shit down. And changing my subliminal to automatic training list.
keep in mind i practice besides this also my spiritual path for as the same time, this around 7 years to now, daily.
To loose sensitivity
So but after so many years, months and weeks of practicing, edging, programing ive came across sexual kung-fu( is a good yt channel btw.)
Wich said you must open your tantien and microcosm orbit and the back chanells so you can counciously filter and direct the generating energys upwards and troughout your body.
So i did these exercises of strengthening my tantien and fiiling my microcosmic orbit. And flushing my body with my sexual energys transmuting it for a year and until now. That you can hold this arousing firy energys. And not bussin it.
But due to my my practice of vampirism and other energy generating thinks i do. The hornyness did get even more.
So ive played a lil with myself smoothly, slowly how this sexual kung-fu guy instructet me too. Deeply breathing and relaxing your pc muscles and finding a balance between arousal and relaxing. Well first time i motherflippin busted like a waterspring. And instead of panicking ife sad ok ok its a part of normal sexuality youve busted the last time intentionaly around past 2 years.
So its not a big deal and ive offered it to pan, cernunos, cappela satanas so they help me by my endevour to master this.
After 2 months or so it began again but this time pretty quick ive touched it only like 2 times. Going up and hard like a rocket. Balls squezing together heart pumping like crazy. And i automaticly breathed deeply and rhytmically. I was and am flippin determined to channel this energys and never bust (But for reproduction purpose ill do it).
So due to lil surprise and a lil panic i squezed my trained pc muscle and holded it back as much i could and let the arousal flow. And it was bustles (didnt do the million dollar point technique btw dont do this guys.)
It was so damn good the best orgasm ive ever had it was so good it was extatic. My dicc was still hard but the energys ife slightly remembered in this state must be brought up so i did trough concentration and breathing take this huge firy energys upwards unto my brain and whole being it was orgiastic arousing just good.
It was a enlightenment of a new sexuality for me and a illumination for my whole being.
After this point i am only expresing my sexuality in action trough inner orgasm and can reproduce this tehnique when i want it.
I never go back bustin, its not worth it anymore and never was worth it.
And ife you find it intruiging and interesting, just do it ma dude you will never regret if youve come to this point.
YOUTUBE CHANNELS I RECOMMEND:
Mantak Chia is also good.
Mantanhub for Brahmacharya
Xenoverse for male enhancement subliminaly
For stoping nightfall and strenghtening pc muscle subliminaly life force subliminals