Hello, I was wondering have you resolved your issues?
I actually have a similar thing that happened to me few years, people around me who were spiritually gifted couldn’t help me as they said what happened to me is very difficult as it is very rare. It turns out I had a parasite living inside me; it was feeding on me, my life, and my energy. How did it happen? well, I consume something from a “friend” and it has been growing since then. It was with me for few years. I was almost at the edge of depression, I wasn’t feeling myself, I seem lost.
And one evening, it actually keeps taking over me. I was not aware of it because it happened only in a split second but repeatedly. I become super rude, fierce, aggressive towards my friends, attacking them in a way unlike me. it was trying to separate me from these friends but thankfully my friends know how I usually behave so they were aware I am not myself. And that evening was actually the sign that I have something inside of me. Before that, none of us can detect what is wrong with me. The next day I did seek help, it didn’t work. Someone did some banishing ritual on me, it just hides and acts as it has disappeared but it didn’t as I could sense it few days later.
I was afraid because I know if I didn’t do something about this, I would be dead. So I told myself, if no one can help me, I should help myself.
So what I did is, I make a ritual using candles, intention, visualization to remove it. Btw, I was new to candle magick at that point of time. I have prepared a white and a black candle and a paper written with my intention for my candles, I wrote out my intention on the paper is to prevent my words/thoughts from being changed so I can read it out while setting the intention onto the candles. I would recommend using teal light candles as you will be able to control the fire better over than long candles and also to ensure the candles are able to burn properly to allow the ritual to be successful at a higher rate.
Before I start the ritual, I pray to my guides, asking them to bless me, cleanse me, my space and my surrounding. Next, I ask to be protected and make the ritual successful
I started off with the white candle, I set the intention by holding the white candle with both hands, saying I empower this candle to neutralize the impact, the attachment this entity has on me. I repeated a few times until I feel it is ready then I light it.
Next, holding the black candle with both hands, I set the intention by saying I empower this candle to cut off the connection with this entity, remove the connection with this entity, banish this entity out of my body, away from me & my body, from my life, from my surrounding. If you can visualize, you can visualize with the strings being cut off. while saying the intention. You repeat it and when it is ready, you light the candle and place it beside the white candle.
I did this repeatedly for 3 days and during daytime before noon. I can understand if you have fear in visualising since our thoughts can be twisted. So before you visualise, you should pray to your guides for strength and a clear mind to allow yourself to visualise clearly.
My first attempt actually failed because I only use 1 black candle but I realize it is quite strong and attached to me since it is inside me so I use a white candle to assist me.
Hope this sharing is able to help you and give you some strength.