well after a month of nothing but disappointments… I have been left suicidally depressed. The girl I liked… well she is resistant towards the magick. And apparently my parents are fighting more than ever before (according to my sister). I think my father is going to die soon… he gets sicker and sicker everyday.
In my desperation I decided I would do a pact with Belial… I don’t really care what happens to my life at this point so I made a lifelong pact (I know some people would be against this but at this point I am already dead inside and don’t give a fuck).
The terms where for my father to defeat my mother in court and for her to be left in the streets to rot like the shit that she is. And the other one (I guess because TWF… suggested it) was that I wanted the favors of the girl I loved (Sitri stopped working with me and the mojo bag I had gotten from also TWF did as well…though I am working to recharge it)
During the ritual I was drunk as shit and began chanting his name like crazy. I began drooling and going crazier than I ever been before. I was speaking in tongues and I felt something grab my head from behind… my voice became deeper. I felt the most powerful presence I have ever in my life… I knew he was there. I told him if he did these things for me I would dedicate my life to spreading his dominion on this earth. I would “be his soldier” is what I kept repeating over and over again. I spilled my blood over the seal I had gotten from TWF… then I blacked out for a few seconds and then I dragged my self weakly to bed and fell asleep.
I don’t know if I should do the ritual again because technically I did not write down a contract like others have suggested. But I am pretty sure he heard my demands. Well see if he will help me. If he does… then I have found my new God!
-Sincerely Sinister