Everything Sultitan_Itan said is solid gold (as usual for him) - I just want to share one experience that might be useful. Usual disclaimers that this is just my UPG, etc.
I got kinda assigned Belial (or him me - whatever) when I threw myself into working with Ahriman in February this year in order to explore and master the demonic realms. I’ve posted about it already and won’t repeat.
At one point when we were working together on something, he asked me to do something (not sexual, btw) that I find really emotionally difficult - I’ve more or less cleared out my mental bugaboos, but a few remain, and this was right in the middle of one of them.
While I’m not averse to spirits helping me grow, in fact it’s often a good thing, this didn’t feel like that - it felt like when I sideline the knowledge that my dog dislikes loud noises and go ahead and use the vacuum in front of him anyway; the disregard we show a different level of awareness, when we think our needs are more important.
I got started on the thing, and I did start getting upset - not crying or anything, but it was getting to me. He IMMEDIATELY pushed into my awareness to say, stop it - and then made a minor but significant reality shift to arrange something awesome for me to take my mind off it. I don’t want to talk about what it was but it was nice, and I would go so far as to say, considerate.
So my perception of this, fwiw, is that he understands human pain and doesn’t go out of his way to cause it when you’re in his good books, BUT that he either pushes a challenge too far (as this was for me) or he doesn’t maybe completely want to always be limited by our mental and emotional “stuff” - same as the dog thing, if I need to use the vacuum for some spilled floour, I do it, and then have to dish out treats and cuddles.
If you have a diagnosis of PTSD, you might want to have a serious conversation with him, or at least a serious explanation, because I know a bit about that and it’s a brittle illness, not one that can just be fixed by repeat exposure/externally-led desensitisation, since it already repeats via re-experiencing, hyper-arousal, and so on.
I don’t THINK he was just yanking my chain to see what I’d do - I’ve known spirits like that and I didn’t get that impression - and, he more than made up for it.
Anyway, that’s my experience, I was going to PM this but it’s relevant to the topic of Belial and even though I didn’t go anywhere near as deep as you’ve done by promising him anything as extreme, this pertains to actual psychological pain and how he handled it, and I hope you can (both) find constructive ways to work on yours. Desperate times can call for desperate measures, but handling the long-term fallout is where the challenges lie.
Good luck to both of you.