June 2nd, 2021
18:00
This might deviate into a rant at…some point.
My ankle hurts, I can’t flex it too much. It hurts when I sit for too long and then stand up. I also forgot to apply my medicine last night, so I’m setting an alarm for tonight. Alarms because reminders don’t work for me.
One of my pet peeves is when people look up what I answered when they ask a question, and doubt me about it. I’ve repeatedly told them that I only answer if I’m confident that it’s right/valuable, otherwise I just say I don’t know. And not knowing is okay! But they say it in a way that it indirectly calls me dumb, and sometimes I do feel dumb because I don’t score well, I’m scared of it but I’m facing it. I’m falling but I’m trying my hardest to get back up, if I can’t do it alone I’ll find a stick.
Today I have realised some more aspects of myself. Some of the “darker” ones. I made a drawing for my mum today, her birthday is soon and I asked her what she wanted. She said Michelangelo, so I took up the challenge.
I drew the face of Michelangelo’s ‘David’. The face is good but the nose looks like Hitler? And the mouth like Donald Duck, but I’m proud of it. It took me 3 hours but it turned out good. I showed it to my sis and she just said “nice”.
You could hear the glass shatter (not really, it was my heart).
People do change, but I just feel like those important to me don’t know me anymore.
I’ve been having so many romantic dreams lately, and it just makes me feel all giddy for someone I haven’t even met yet. Maybe soon?Hopefully. So I did what I usually did.
Waste my time on stupid quizzes. They’re fun.
Little me used to love them, and the 19 year old me now loves them too. They’re a way I connect to my inner child and it makes me incredibly happy.
No headache after the protection ritual today. I need to look up the book Dankquanicus recommended adds alarm.
Today’s dinner is Soya, I hope everyone who reads this has a good day💜