@DeaMadre I empathise with you hugely as there’s quite a few parallels between your situation and mine which is described on my My own thread.
My target has been driving me crazy at times because I can’t stop obsessing and thinking about her, I’ve been able to rescue it despite myself before… right now I’m waiting to strike again as I’ve just saved it from collapsing once more… its still not resolved but I’m feeling much more confident than before.
The five things that have shifted my energy the most are 1) using Zanna Blaise’s 72 sigils of Power. Meditate on the contemplation magick for internal changes then use the results magick 2) Lots meditation and self love, check out Agnes Vivarelli, she says a few things that really hit a) everyone is you pushed out b) You need to surrender to the situation and be secure in yourself c) 3) My own Nuclear bomb clearing using Metatron and Yohach/Kalach 4) using the merkaba + metatron. 5) consulting the Iching frequently to see if my internal changes have been processed. I will put my targets name in frequently and have noticed positive readings all of a sudden after doing the previous 4 steps whereas I was getting warnings for days and days before. Doing all this internal work daily has made me far more relaxed and positive about not just this but everything… surrender is about being able to recieve your desire rather than being the constant transmitter that suffocates the other person… the less bad you feel about it, the closer it is to coming true… 