In about 30 minutes the 3 day mark will come, signifying the end of my period to get what I requested. I didn’t see anything at all related to what I asked. It is making me angry at Zagan, could he have just been tricking me and trying to take my energy this whole time?
The most connection I have had was when I saw his eyes staring at me, it was so abrupt to the point where I flinched and had to process it for a couple seconds (I have aphantasia so it was really weird, first time I clearly saw images in my head apart from on psychs or a long long time in my past). He also has given me advice, because I can recognize some of these thoughts when doing rituals as “not mine”, if you know what I mean. I never felt a bad or intimidating presence from working with him. So I thought we had a decent connection at least? Yet Zagan has not done what I wanted.
I asked a very specific question related to whether or not he completed an earlier ritual as specified. As I receive no sign, I’m taking that as Zagan saying that he is not / will not help me, and he never helped me on the previous ritual, despite me feeling a lot of clarity after.
What to do now? Could it have been my question was over-specific to the point of not working? Almost immediately after the ritual I thought that my over specific ness actually hurt me, like if he takes it literally it will be illogical. I thought that he would interpret the message possibly and know way I mean though. Maybe that doubt messed it up?
Or does this seem like a sign to move onto a different entity? I am honestly more surprised I didn’t see the symbol I asked for than if I were to see it. I felt the connection was quite strong and that we are similar, but maybe it was just all in my head.
I know that everyone probably fails sometime, but how often do you fail until you know that maybe Goetic demons are not the path for you?