Maybe he’s asking you to step into your own power, which is the ultimate rebellion against all would-be tyrants?
Try doing this simple and relatively benign spell on someone you want out of your life, and don’t call on ANY gods. demons, spirits, or anything:
(I’m suggesting that one because you might have the things needed already in your house.)
It is normal to have doubts, religious people paper them over with faith, but magicians are more honest and will admit they happen from time to time - it’s also fairly normal for your mind to try and “reset” your normality after doing a summoning or other kind of magickal act.
Btw, please please introduce yourself to members of the forum in this thread.
It’s one of the forum’s rules, but you probably didn’t see it because people often miss things like that. 