Last time I visited these forums was back in 2011 (it was called evocationmagic back then) I got interested in occult after watching movie called Demon Lo. I remember reading a lot on these forums and one day I felt uncomfortable as if I was being watched. I forgot all about it until few weeks ago the name Astaroth popped up in my head and I decided to come back and learn a bit more about the occult.
Having a traumatic childhood I was always depressed in my 20s, recently I have discovered chakra meditation which has helped me find inner peace and reduce anxiety.
Now my question is what other types of meditation would you guys recommend to achieve blissfull state. With all due respect I dont want to get involved in Demonic entities, is there any Angelic being to call on or chant and harness energy somehow. I have been emotionally and physically abused by my own mother so I need to harness that motherly energy and affection so I can feel secure and happy within myself.
Thanks in advance.