I have always been attracted to only other males (genetic males), and never a female… not physically, mentally, romantically or sexually ever in my life (sense early childhood).
I have also always been able to tell when a spirit has entered into me either when in invited or against my will & without my permission. It comes with a physical sensation & an energetic sensation that those whom have had any experience with spirit invocation, possession ext. Knows good and well what I’m talking about (it’s unmistakable).
To go along with it there is a complete fear shift in personality, ways of thinking & I know there is a foreign intelligence within me (as my inner spirit & body is in direct conflict with it).
This Spirit has a strong sexual & romantic lust …attraction … towards females … and I don’t. So much to that it takes joy in manifesting the results in my body against my will.
I don’t like it and I’ve told it to stop several times.
I don’t like the fact that it is violating me & entering without my permission & then creating muscle memory within me & effecting my neuro pathways & flesh to be built & stored up …
& enters & resides within me at times …
Without my permission.
I don’t like being violated in any manner … especially sexually because I have a life long history of being made to suffer sexual assaults & abuses at the hands of a total of 22 people over a period of time spanking over 3 decades (from childhood & even into adulthood).
I don’t like it & it’s pissing me off. So much so that’s it’s tempting me to contact a Persons whom has the power to cast it into a Hell relm & bind it their against it will.
And I can hear it pleading against this action & leveling threats against me … seeing this text … and hearing another spirit reading it outloud to them. Pleading, groveling & leveling threats of harm just like some low life rapist or molester whom hasn’t a shred of dignity.
So what should I do?
How should I handle such pest?
P.S. I’m clearly Queer (Being attracted to genetically Male persons or persons whom resemble cute males, until I findout they started out a girls/woman … or they look like females)