i can see why now that i have read this response
MK, you’re calling too many different spirits without a PURPOSE. they are all going in different directions and taking you with them.
so basically, you are being drawn and quartered by your own spirit helpers.
when you do convocations (multiple evocations are known as convocations), you want to do them in such a way that your spirits are all going in the SAME direction.
before you do anything important you need to draft up a plan. ascending is no different than starting a business, buying a home, educating yourself for a career, investing for your retirement, or anything else you do in long-term goalsetting. you do well because you plan well and find a purpose, a destination, and a travel route as well as a means of efficient transportation. before you go calling all of those spirits, you have to figure out what you want out of life, where you want to go, where you are, and how you will get from here to there safely and quickly. i can tell by the list of spirits that you have called that you haven’t done that yet.
you may want to create an NLP logical levels pyramid to figure out where you want to go next in life. what do you want to be? who can you model yourself after (archetype, person, even god)? what direction do you want to go in? give yourself a little bit of large-scale purpose setting first to sharpen your vision.
also, and in magick i don’t think this point is made nearly often enough - what you want to do is BALANCE yourself out first and THEN conjure to let the spirits take you further in the ultimate direction you want to go in.
your astrological birth chart can help you out a LOT here. find out what time you were born and then use a simple birth chart generator to give you in-depth clues to your personality and why you do things you do.
the usual birth chart reading tells you what planet is in what sign. but to go deeper, you will want to learn:
: your elemental makeup, including missing elements if any
: which planets are in which signs
: which planets are in which houses
: which signs are in which houses
: depending on what you want, your planet/sign in house placements to tell you what to expect for your major goals
and then look each one of them up. for instance, if you have a predominance of fire in your chart, that will tell you something. if your mercury is in scorpio that tells you something else. if your saturn is in the 7th house that says something as well. and if you have aquarius in the 5th house, that tells you something. if you want to be wealthy, you examine the planets and signs in your 2nd and 10th houses, and the placement of the planets that rule your 2nd and 10th houses (venus and saturn) in your chart.
you’d look everything up and read whatever it says, and then decide how much of that is true for you. by doing that work you get a good overview of the energies in your life. from there, you carefully select the spirit forces that can help you balance out your energies, and THEN when you are balanced out the ones that will take you forward into your ultimate destiny. this i believe is the beginning of the great work and i also believe it is what bardon was hinting at in the initiation to hermetics part 2, step 1: magick and psychic training.
these clues and the spirits that you call on to further their insight can help you figure out what where you really stand in your life as of now.
when you know where you want to go and know where you are now, THEN you conjure to make the trip. otherwise you are just hitchhiking around the goetia and other grimoires and you’ll get places, but you’ll also end up getting lost and the chances of ending up where you want to go are slim.
between your current personality and your ideal personality is all the internal work that you need to conjure for. that gives your conjurations PURPOSE and DIRECTION.
everything i said i was going to do with you, i’m scrapping it. until you know what you want nobody can help you. well, they can help you get what THEY want for you. but you probably won’t be going in YOUR direction, you’ll end up going in THEIRS. and that’s good for them but maybe it won’t be good for you.
finally, about the spirits you called…
you may want to make a list of ALL the spirits you conjured if you can remember them all, and instead of banishing them and throwing their sigils away, ASK THEM FOR HELP. that’s what they’re there for, right?
just tell them you’re trying to figure your destiny out and you need them to recommend other spirits that help you with initiation and master plans, and if you conjured them for the wrong thing to redirect you to spirits and familiars that will align you with YOUR ultimate destiny.
belial was right. take control of your life. but self-reflection first.