^^ True .
Even from me, there is hope.
I too loved a woman that both men, women and myself fucked up my chances.
I too nearly committed suicide, had something not pulled me back from the oncoming semi truck.
I too had trouble in school, including being kicked out of college.
Life and the world are hard, find the good parts.
Let’s not do anything rash, Yeah? Can’t say I haven’t wanted to off myself, but it doesn’t help too much. If you wanna I can’t stop you.
Thats all you need young one. Trust me.
of 
is right the most powerful ingredient is you.
and here is an oldie but it gets me every damn time. This alone gets me out of that damn Funk mood…
Imagine an old white lady with medical issues… putting on her funk on, oh yeah you grandma aint got nothing on me. swinging that old hip
Aside from all the suicide prevention others mentioned, I suggest you look around for a spirit to help you out, to get close to, to watch over you. Lucifer, King Paimon, Azazel, are all good. Marbas would be good as well.
For exams, you can look at this:
As for girl trouble: Sitri, Sallos, Beleth, Dantalion.
Listen to me. You need to go to a doctor and explain this. I don’t mean to be rude and I am not trying to make light of your feelings, but you are in no position to be trying magick right now if you really want help, and so a magick forum is not going to get you the kind of help you need right now. I am not questioning your sanity, I am simply respecting your request for help.
^^ that
You’re not gonna commit suicide.
I can sense it.
Just calm down and relax.
Sometimes you just gotta look into a mirror and tell your self It’s gonna be okay.
I suggest shadow work. If you can heal from this, I might mentor you.
Morrigan and others gave me this when I needed it most. It’s now my rallying call. Find that warrior-prince inside of you.
In a few years you will look back at this post and laugh.
You are 16.Enjoy the crush on the girl and exams can be repeated.
Sending you happy vibes x
Every single successful person was crushed by life at some stage, you’re getting this over with while you’re young enough to bounce back.
The only person in the universe powerful enough to take you down is YOU - reflect on the things you can accomplish once you resolve to overcome this.
If you (or anyone else reading this thread) are having thoughts of hurting yourself, it’s important that you discuss them with someone who is qualified to help, such as a crisis helpline in your country. Please visit this link to find the appropriate number:
If you feel that you may be an immediate danger to yourself, please call your local emergency number or go to your local hospital emergency room right away.
If you are unsure of the right number to call, please visit this link and call the number next to the country where you are located:
If that seems too much to handle, consider joining this group that offers non-judgmental peer-support:
http://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/
This might also help, if you can’t talk to anyone right now, no matter how supportive:
Please don’t. I really mean that. Think about all of the things you would miss out on. That new season of the show you love, that song on the radio you like to listen to, that beautiful and sweet girl you’ll never meet, new friends, new experiences, new magick books, etc. I’ve been where your at. I’ve put journals up and you could probably find them. But it’s over now. For the first time in nearly five years I can say that I’m happy with myself. You can get there too! Odin told me “Happiness doesn’t last. Neither does sadness. Winter comes, and the sun eventually melts the snow. All things are cyclical. This pain shall too be melted by the warm sunny rays of happiness.”
How freaking beautifully put.
Hey there, the others have already given some advice and showcases care, I thought since I am according to myself a person who on a regular basis struggles with serious depression among many other things, I thought I might be of use.
Firstly it sucks when life feel meaningless and you feel bored so bored even you don’t even know why you bothered to for example get out of bed. There’s not much you can do about other than attempting to either find a new hobby or try to reconnect with something you used to like trying to add a new spin on it. In short distract yourself so you don’t feel like you want to die in whatever way that rocks your boat.
Secondly, here’s something I heard from one of the spirits I talk to frequently, he told me this last month; I am paraphrasing here: if you have the time to sit around and feel the world is working against you then you have time to manage yourself (job, school, projects, etc.) instead of subjugating yourself to nedless suffering then you need to change the outcome and change the circumstance in which you operate if you do you will find the blockages that you’ve most placed in your way disspates like breeze on solid stone. - I guess the meaning of the message is this in your situation, focus on what you can change and affect, like your exams, worry about love after that is taken care of mainly so you don’t stress yourself out.
All the power to you and my heart my goes out to you in this
These guys never helped me .
I loved your post, we could be best of friends haha lol
Our pain is self inflicted.
I got that tatted on my chest for a reason homie
Between 15-20 I was depressed too. My perspective on life was shit, the monotony dulled my senses, and I did hella drugs just to numb myself to the boredom. I was so bored I too, obsessed over a chick. My obsession over her hurt me even more than she eventually did lol.
Tbh, you are the root of your own problem, because you dont love or accept, or even know yourself yet. Your basis for happiness is still based upon what makes other people happy, ie. The girl, the clothes, the status of others.
It blows to say, but do something constructive. At least play a damn video game and simmer down. You dont need anyone, or anything except yourself
I mean I’d forget about the girl man. Just forget her.
Do anything you have to to forget about her.
If your thinking about sucide your not ready for a girlfriend.
It would be a disaterous relationship with her always having to take care of you and deal with your suicidal depression.
