Need help with interpreting a dream

In my my recent oracle reading, I pulled two “Messages” cards back to back. The first was Messages/Dreams and the other was Mercury/Messages/Travel/Communication. They were followed by the Remember/Awakening card. The problem is, a lot of times, I don’t really remember my dreams. I think part of the problem is that I’m currently on anxiety medication which makes dreaming and meditating much different for me.

Anyway, tonight I had a very strange dream that felt very much like a message, but I am not sure how to interpret it. I’m hoping that some of you can read it and make suggestions. Hopefully, something will ring a bell or trigger me.

I dreamed that I was in a white dress in a room inside of a very old house, possibly even a castle. The walls were stone and the doors were very heavy, and the atmosphere was old, damp, and dark and moody. There were many servants in the house, but I was told that the master of the house was away for a few days. I was told that I had full use of the house and could roam as I wished… except for the room next door to the left of mine. It was locked and was to be left alone at all times.

My door and the door to my left were in the corner of a hallway, at a 90 degree angle. So, I would see the door whenever my door was open. I sat and brushed my hair at a vanity and could see the door in the mirror behind my shoulder, etc. The door gave me a very intense feeling of dread. The whole dream was very slow paced, very tense, and ominous.

A little girl with long, dark curly hair was in the hallway at one point. She was in a victorian style white dress, with white stockings, a baby blue bow at the back of her hair, and shiny little black shoes. She was holding something in her hand that might have been a teddy bear or a doll.

She was standing at the door, with her left hand on it as though she was pushing it. I called out and reminded her never to open that door. Without acknowledging me, she ran away, but her shiny shoes made no sound on the floor.

I didn’t go after her. I sat there, staring at the door, and gradually realized what was different. There was a shadow in the crack at the bottom of the door. But what was more, was that the door was one of those split styles, and the bottom half of the door was open just a crack. I slowly began to walk to it. At the bottom of the door was not a shadow, but blood red cloven hooves. At the middle where the door was split, was a blood red hand with sharp nails gripping the door. And there was a sliding panel in the top half where you could look into the room. It was open and all I could see was two very ancient looking, deep brown colored horns.

In a split second, one blink of an eye, it was gone. I walked into the hallway, and pushed open the split door. The room was completely barren and unused. Just empty stone walls and a bare floor.

I walked down the long hallway and suddenly I could feel that it was hiding somewhere, perhaps behind the drapes or tapestries on the walls. I stopped, dead in my tracks, and pointed towards one of them and my mouth opened grotesquely. I could hear horrible screaming, oved and over again, but nothing was coming out of my mouth. (Think Donald Sutherland in The Omen.)

The people of the house ran up and surrounded me. I felt them grabbing me and beginning to pull me away from where I stood. Dragging me backwards. I was gasping and frantic and muttered, “The little girl… she opened the door.” One of them answered, “Little girl? There are no children here.”

As they drug me back, I caught a glimpse of the hallway again and suddenly realized that they were dragging me not to MY room but into the barren room with the split door. I looked to my right, just as the door was slamming. There was no door, no bedroom, to my right. The door slammed shut and the heavy lock turned… and I woke up.

In dreams I often view houses as representing people, usually myself but in this case it seems like it might be someone else. Did the house feel like your own house or were you a visitor? You have your own room in here which makes it sound like the latter.

For example when I dreamt am imp climbed in the window of my house, that was my subconscious showing me a parasite attaching. A mansion is used as the structure by which to explore the mind of a person in Josephine McCarthy’s Exorcist’s Handbook, and of course we have Sherlock Holme’s “Mind palace”.

Running off that then, there seems to be an area in the persons mind that is very well protected and they don’t want people to look at it. If you get in they place a cover image of “nothing to see here” over it. But there’s energy this person holds, maybe memories, that induce fear or negativity of some kind for them, represented as a typical clichéd “demon” with all that implies depending on the owner’s culture background. The room I think just tells us they don’t want it to be seen, not that it’s locked away but they might not be aware if it’s suppressed memories… The other people seem like protective parts of the mind that help keep this suppressed.

The girl seems like another version of yourself, dressed also in white and representing curiosity or innocence or acceptance or leaning, or your own inner child, maybe a portion of your psyche that is in a state reminiscent of childlike capacities, maybe another aspect of the person that is curious. For this aspect I’d go back into the dream in trance and attempt to speak to her to ask her who she is, as there’s a lot of possibilities, and it’s probably personal and nothing I could think of offhand.

The protective mechanisms seem to have been successful. I’m feeling that the “nothing is going on” room acted not so much as a prison to lock you in, but to lock you away from and to shut you out of the matter so you and your inner child or whatever can’t keep nosing around. Someone really didn’t want you or anybody investigating that energy at all.

That’s my take anyway.

This was definitely not my house. They referred to the “Master of the House” not being home, but I was free to roam around everywehere except “the room” until he returned. It was a similar vibe to more ancient times, such as the Victorian era, when relatives would be invited to stay at someone’s estate for a lengthy respite. Those guests would be given a room to stay in and treated just as any other members of the household.

Yeah that feels right. I wonder if you having a “room” in there means this is someone who knows you?

My oracle readings usually center around a situation that I am in right now with my specific person. The entire reading that night was centered around what did I need to know about our future. I always channel Lilith into that deck because her name is on them and I dedicated it to her.

The way you interpreted this dream actually resonates more with me than my interpretation. Initially, I interpreted it as me challenging myself and then setting my own demons free. That the people didn’t approve of this new path, so they called me insane and rushed to lock me away. In letting them pull me back, I in turn became the demon in the locked room.

But, as you said, this house was not my house. And the demon could not be mine because he is a part of the master’s house. And I was just a visitor.

My specific person has things he thinks he has hidden from me. But I already know about them, both intuitively and tangibly. He also has been mistreated a lot and often feels a need to put walls up and keep people at arm’s length. He has trouble with emotions because his previous partner constantly belittled and demeaned him at every turn.

For him, especially right now, love is only something that he believes equals pain. Whereas, as an intuitive empath, I am a creature of love. I don’t love, I am love. I just… am. He keeps being drawn to me because of it, and he’s told me how wonderful the way I think and feel is, but I also think that who I am hurts him on some deeper level. Maybe it shines a light on what has been missing in him for a very long time.

So, the idea that there are things in his “house” that he’s afraid to let me see and might block me out because of it, definitely resonates.