I don’t agree and I have spent years working on this question, and it was confirmed as Raphael.
You have zero experience in magick but you can tell members of this forum that their lived experience, verified using trusted techniques outlined in the tutorials you have not yet tried, are wrong because… why? Some dogma you saw in a movie?
What on earth do you think you are doing? You are welcome to disagree but come on. 
This is not your experience, right? Have you contemplated suicide, or are you are posting an opinion someone gave you? Do you know why you believe it? You’re practicing magick that’s against JCI religions doctrines but you know what “god wants” for other things…? 
I need to put my mod hat on here and remind you that we have a rule against preaching.
It’s fine to have your religion but please don’t derail a working thread with preachy sentiments. We are all aware what Christians think and that’s not what we are talking about here.